Monday 6th of December 2010.....

morning...
A sunny dry season day.. Yesterday was the first obvious day of dry
season, and today a repeat...

have been busy this morning, guitar stint before daybreak, then
sending emails, then doing dishes & bath at the spring.... Also picked
and shucked corn for seed, now drying in the yard...

and just washed some glass bottles at the spring, to use for organizers etc..

I've always saved bottles.. always wanted to do a spice rack, and
use the saved bottles and jars to fill up with herbs from the garden,
and boughten spices etc.

my vision was that hut in the mountains, or the Hogan, or the yurt...

little did I know it would be a wall tent with no walls in Central
America.... And at the moment I have seven wild monkeys about ten feet
from my shelter, eating bananas I've set out for them... when the
new banana area comes on, no doubt I'll have wild monkeys climbing all
over me, once they get used to me having them all the time... so...
A tich more Tarzanish these days.....

one thing follows another, and spice racks are going to follow new
shelter project...

that & alot of other projects...

One thing I wanted to mention to you, is that I've quit buying matches
& lighters... nowdays I'm using a welder's striker, and a small
bottle of gas with a Bic pen refill tube inserted in an undersized
hole in the cap.. a few drops of gas where you want fire, remove gas
bottle from immediate vicinity, use striker to ignite the volitile
vapor....

just one step closer to being self sufficient... and wondering if I
could use the volitiles from cirtus peels to do the same trick...

its all about finding the balance point... And considering where the
system is going, I think getting away from it is critical..

I had hoped to do the spice rack for a good woman, but so far, none
of the above has appeared in my life... have had a fair chain of not
so good women... but luckily never did the spice rack, or it would
have dissappeared with one of them, on their way, in the quest for
infinite vanity...

these days, theyre more interested in money, and getting their hands
and mouths on each other, than being decent partners for a man...
the missing rib seems a total loss at this point....

but I suspect the progenitors will fix all that... cut a few million
necks, and leave the decent ones who arent too silly....

sad.... I suppose there will be a very loud women's wailing when they
learn they get to be executed for being genetic culls..

the planet is a farm folks, we're part of the decorations, and instead
of being happy camper primitives, we've trashed the other planted
life forms, and built Cities as monuments to our Hubris & Vanity.....

and the progenitors might notice all the Missing Buffalo.... and the
Elephants, Whales, Dolphins, Gorillas, etc. and decide its time to
thin out the neurotic/narcistic proto humans a bit...

One thing I've noticed doing my homework, is in the bible, all the
examples of culling give half...

two men in a bed, one gets jerked, two women grinding, one suddenly
isnt around to gossip with... Ten virgins with lamps, 5 are wise, and
5 get left out in the dark...

so, I wonder if they plan on editing half the survivors? could be
rather rude... if one adds up the numbers for death from wars, famine
& plagues, it leaves less than a quarter of humanity..

so if you cut that number in half at the neck line, may be 500
million or so executed at the same time... would explain the rivers
of blood up to a horse's bridle...

Gee? I sure hope I can get my act cleaned up enough while I'm busy
surviving, to make it into the better than 50% types... that
"Getting a D or an F" could be pretty bad... if I cant make it as an
A student, I think I'll try for an A anyway, that way if I bomb out,
maybe get a B, or at least a high C.....

and as JC pointed out, there is one who will judge... I.e. It aint
him... my question, is "what" will it be? might not even be remotely
human... Or maybe just barely remotely human? I'm not sure which
would be less pleasant... Human judges are bad enough..

so only remotely human could be alot less understanding, and a not
even human type could have some bazaar criteria for what it takes to
be a decent proto-human lab rat type....

Another thought that comes to mind, is after the neck cutting garden
party, theres going to be plenty of survivors who're missing
partners, who didnt make the grade... should be quite the singles
club... especially with the survivors knowing theyre going to live as
ordered or else..... one reads the mandates, and theyre strict... no
way I'd pass without serious amounts of grace... and if I found
myself with neck intact, and expected to live up to the ten
commandments etc. it would be good if I'd at least thought about
them, and attempted compliance before hand...

another thought, is the importance placed on Preparedness... Passover
was the first observance, and ordered to be celibrated; "Forever"....
so I suspect it was considered critical to the human mindset that we
be good boyscouts, and keep out scoutknife sharp, and our pack
ready...

one of my up coming handle making projects, is a walking staff like
for passover/exodus, out of Cortesa.. mostly just to have, if I was
going walkabout, I'd want to grab my 7 ft cortesa spear, with it's
440C type stainless bitt.... A far better walking stick in a post
Holocaust world.....

but I think I'll do the staff, just in case I need it, plus its a
good device for shelling beans & chick peas.... in fact I'll
hopefully be making a set of threshing tools, from 5 ft staff, to say
4 ft bar, and maybe a couple of 36 inch or less sticks, all for
threshing various subsistence crops....

I have a Cortesa flail that I made, but stuff in the legumes families
wants less whack & more whomp
to thresh...

no, I dont think I'd want to be living too vain a life leading up to
judgement day... might be a good idea to err on the humble side a
bit....

I see plenty of Christians living like spoiled princes, hogging up
resources & reality, just sure this or that contrived dogma, like the
Rapture, or
Auto-Salvation just for believing etc. Is a sure butt saver for
them... but that isnt what the manual says scouts... thats what
people making a profit off of bliss ninnies say it says..... And both
they &
victim/ninnies could end up taking turns on the same chicken's
dreaded stump....

from what I read, compliance is the real issue... Talk is cheap, and
people will believe anything, so it all boils down to following
orders... you dont suppose "Jehova of armies" knows anything about
having orders followed do you?

that the supreme general of this end of the galaxy posted his
doctrine, and you, not even a raw recruit yet, start thinking its
discretionary... And think you'll get away with some he-said-she-said
shit....

its your courts martial, and your neck, literally.....

and if I was a woman with an obvious cull, I think I'd go solo, and
same for men with vanity headed slitches... its like having a best
friend thats a bank robber.. not likely a good influence... Nor much
of a defense...

I see endless numbers of men making survival decisions based on fear of what
their "Sex-mommy's" approval rating will be...

and no doubt plenty of women swayed by their economic security and
vanity enhancement benefactor also.....

the way to destruction is broad & easy...
And the path to survival narrow and difficult....

to me survival is a higher priority than either sex or vanity...
survival is real security, money is false security...

and vanity is filthy....

anyway, running out of space, and I have a song stuck in my head;
"That old wheel" by Johnny Cash, so I think I'll heat up the six
string and work on my version....

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Continued.......

I think the monkeys have eaten the most..
Well, theyre likely hungry, not alot of food due to the excessive rain...

just checked the bread, looking good, will turn it in a few minutes..
I ground the corn more fine, experimenting towards a better corn
flatbread... I like to play with the little things, and get a recipe
as good as it gets...

I've done this for years, trying different things with the
ingredients available here, nothing too fancy, but I have come up with
some good basic food recipes....

its a cheap hobby... and I've produced the ability to eat well, on
easy to grow "weed foods"... things you plant that require almost
no care..

thinking about the women i've communicated with, on line, and here
in person...

I notice a couple patterns, they always think they know more than I
do, and their own vanity has them enamored with the big lie...

it will be interesting to see who remembers me as things worsen....

I always look at it as I'm trying to save this or that woman from
whats starting to happen now....
They seem to see it as an opportunity to do the "Romantic Twiddle
Dance" with another male..

So sure of their own power of attraction, and their own instinctual
ability to manipulate....

but as a male, once youre on to the game, its never the same again..
enticing, yes, manipulate, no...
Seems to upset them.... but I'm not worried... As things worsen,
more people will wake up, including females... I see it as just a
matter of time until one I like sees me as a good idea... All those
games & vanities are likely to go by the wayside as the shit hits...

is surviving a form of love? ah? I think so... Whether it be love
to keep living, or love to keep you alive, its a fundamental..

so the warrior in the beat up armor might get to be a good choice
after all... He's no young prince, but he's fought a lot of battles,
and is still here....

doesnt matter really... I know how to travel alone...
no few miles behind me... Some still yet ahead....

later, listening to short wave... plenty of discussion on VOA about
wikileaks documents...
Mostly petty shit.. less than flattering descriptions of various
national leaders..

mention/discussion of North Korea... evidently a currency devaluation
in north korea, following the american/globalist model into collapse
mode..

so I guess the US has more in common with North Korea than an
entrenched misrepresentitve form of government? or a military
industrial complex that sucks up everything? Well theres the cold
climate, and that they eat alot of potatos... people in US soon to be
eating more potatos too... Because they wont have bread...

and North Korea is a spoiled beligerent nuclear power... Theres
another match up.. Eh?

soon to trade one petty tyrant for his son... Yup.. We had that too!
bush-bush era...

maybe we could solve the diplomatic row, by offering them sister city
status for their capitol with washington? we seem to have so much in
common...

I've actually heard North Korea broadcast on short wave before, a rare
DX... they were as glowing about their leadership, as VOA is about
the Hillary & Barrak show...

personally I'm beginning to suspect that politics is like past pull
date items from the butcher shop...

doesnt matter which butcher shop.. it all stinks...

politics by unenlightened humans is failure prone.. all I hear is
bickering..

I think I'll mind my own business.. get my own trip in order.. And
not believe in political fairy tales... If politics was capable of
solving problems, we would have run out of problems long ago.. looks
to me like politics is most capable of creating problems... results
so suggest..

sad, but true.. hoeing in my spud patch is a more effective way
of solving problems than believing in a system no better than the
people who make it up... I notice theres one thing thats never on any
political agenda; & thats letting me run my own life as I see fit, and
leaving me alone to be able to do it... its why I live here on a
mountain in central america... thanks to the mud, rain, snakes,
rodents, etc. Nobody wants it, no oil here, poor soil, rude
neighbors, etc.... so I get left alone.....

living on Humble mountain has it's benefits.. No women for hillary to
help, no minoritys other than one white guy.. theres just me & my
own problems... solving them one at a time, thru realizing my own
imperfections, and trying to improve my habits.. solitude is
peaceful..

my goals are simple...

wanting too much is the most common of problems for humans... the
fights in marriages, the lifetimes of payments, the obiesity, the
greed, like Rats wanting to eat, gnaw on things, and breed more
Rats.. we gnaw on want...

And have been manipulated into unsustainable expectations.. its like
the women I deal with... they want too much... So I'm not good enough
for them... its not the person that counts, to them its what I can
get for them...

and they want their cake & eat it too...

The Ticas want a lard laced diet, a nice house with a TV, a car, and a
plastic card.... Where did they learn all that? the TV of course..
they watch soap operas all day, which here is mostly yelling and
screaming and people plotting.... Personally I wouldnt own one of the
pieces of shit... its like the internet, 99% garbage... I go online
maybe look at some images, download a few, of things I'm interested
in.. maybe used wikipedia a dozen times in a couple years.. if I
visit sales websites, its not to shop, its to see whats there..

dont have much of an online neurosis..
Its like visiting the junk shops on the Panama border... Filled to the
brim with shit, I go, and usually not one percent interests me..
not interested in fancy clothing, cosmetics, or imported foods.. I am
free from want of such... mostly I'm after ingredients for my various
projects, and things to enhance my preparedness.. why am I free of
limitless wants? because my dream doesnt need all their shit...
I buy things that suit my lifestyle, practical items... I buy
more items of stainless steel than any other material.. why? Because
stainless is long lasting, and practical things are made from it, and
can be made from it..

I also buy tools, but very few now... I have most everything I really
need... and all I'm doing, is filling in on what few agricultural
hand tools I'm missing...

a lifestyle of freedom frees me from the wants associated with
normalcy... my shopping list looks like something from a hundred
years ago, of some guy living up in the brush... the necessities of
life dont change.. every day I use from a list of less than 50
items... And I have all 50.....

So I find it a bit bazaar that women expect me to be able to support
their endless vanities... got the 50 items Babe... what more do we
need? got extra too... I think I have four teapots... I use two...
One to carry cooking water in, and a little one to make tea or
coffee.... my current want in kitcheny items, is to collect up a
stack of 12 inch stainless pie pans.. Why? To use to dry grain and
chick peas in... I have a stack of pizza pans that are nice for
drying stuff, but want something with sides for the easy to spill
grains... not a complicated desire... my guess is I'll buy them
one at a time, maybe two, until I get a half dozen or so.. strange
man? Eh? buying big pie tins.. they dont take up much space
stacked.. They dont cost much, and theyre useful for all kinds of
things.. they add to my ability to be self sufficient
permanently..

would it impress a woman? prob'ly not, not until the collapse comes,
then she'd notice how well they worked drying harvests...

until then she thinks she needs limitless plastic shit... filling
shopping carts with vanity... its about spuds babe... and corn &
peas & peppers.... Its not about being a neurotic poodle headed vanity
freak...

pushing a shopping cart all the way from heaven to hell....
Thirty seconds of pleasure is not worth paying thirty years of being
harranged constantly for more, more, more...

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Wednesday 1st December, 2010.........

Morning,
and a drippy one in the rain forest...
I'm feeling pretty good, just got the fire going, and put some left
overs on to warm for breakfast...

made a realisation a few minutes ago, that alot of problems could be
cured, if I could continue working towards personal independence...

what I'm talking about, is the problems with personal relationships...
notice that in the technocult people use money to not need each
other on a personal basis... i'm wondering if it isnt in part a
reaction to constant interpersonal problems created by our intrinsic
self centered points of view... And that we use jobs etc. To seperate
ourselves from each other, because we cant fix the problems in
ourselves and have that be enough due to relationships being outside
the self, at least one other person, and often multiple players....

I find it sad... that we're so egotistic that we cant get along in
harmony with the people we mix with.. And that we have to distance
ourselves from each other, and use jobs & money to avoid the
interpersonal differences....

I dont see using money for this as being a good idea... money is
constantly terminal... Always debauched in some manner by your local
national status quo, and soon to be robbed by the world government
types mega-status quo.....

and here in Costa Rica, I have some limits imposed by the legalists &
the cultural mindset...

the legalists have it rigged where foriegn nationals cant work jobs,
and can only work in their own businesses, sounds good on paper,
jobs for local people & all that, but still water runs deep, and in
this case there's another side to the story.....

there is a deep set anti-american/anti foriegner game being played..
Where the game is; they all act in unison to trash any & all
foriegners... its systemic, endemic, & insidious... what this means,
is any and all attempts to create and run businesses by non nationals,
has about the same chance as a snowball in hell... what this means
is you cant work a job, and you cant successfully run a business...
you'll get trashed by everyone, from people you employ, to suppliers
if theyre local, to clients if theyre locals, to the legal system...

ask me how I know...

anyway, my point is, that its not independence thru money thats
wise... but there are other types...

and I think its wise to become independent of both money & other
people as much as possible... And I'm working towards those goals...

first by working on my self sufficiency.. food, clothing, shelter,
tools, and weapons.... no man is an island, but the more self
sufficient we are, the less problems we have with each other...

the more self sufficient we are, the less we need the economic system,
and the less we get ripped off by the crooked games of the Elite.....

so I'm applying the neoindigenous mindset to both problems... and
slowly as able working towards complete self suffiency, and a working
isolation on all levels except social, and I find knowing the truth
even frees me from much of that...

I find social connections invite business connections, which invites
problems...
just like family connections...
its all a balance thing...

no such thing as total independence these days...

anyway, its why I work on these fronts, other than being hobbies, and
wise for whats coming... Alot of what I've done in life has been
reactions to problems with people... by minimizing the effects of
money & people on my life, I find tranquility...

"Use money, to eliminate your need for money."
"Use people (labor etc.) to eliminate your need for people."

Use what you gain, to help & enlighten others...

that way independence comes full circle... its not then just another
self centered thing....

this morning I've been working on my shopping list.. soon to do a
run to town, get everybody their money, and buy some foodstuffs for
myself..

if theres anything left over, I try to push my projects a tich.. This
time hoping to get a couple small items to finish the crossbow cable
with...

and maybe some rubber boots...

one is never free from want at the bottom end of reality... I just
try to make progress a constant, however slight, however possible...
Usually able to get one item a month now.. and we're talking small
items... I find that I have more projects than economics...
everything on my list, are items to finish projects, or to better my
situation for whats coming, or both.. sometimes items stay on my
lists for literally years.. but doesnt it feel good when I can
complete a long term project, or get a long term item..... the good
news, is the enforced minimalism combined with what I've realized, has
created a pretty good focus...

I know if I were still living in the states, I'd still be trying to
do too much, and at least this way, my trying to do too much is very
minimalized...

I think my biggest mistake in life, has been doing too much for
others & too little for myself... Sad, but not a bad comentary
either.. now I quest for better balance... While I see others coming
at it from the other end....

Lately I've been thinking about arrow making again... looks to be
coming up in the next Calandar year... and I've been thinking of ways
to do it all myself ingredients wise... yesterday I was thinking of
ways to build plastic nocks.. and started mentally processing ways to
do it... my personal goal is going to be a gross of finished
arrows... to achieve that will take some doing.. why a gross?

because its more arrows than I've used in my entire life, and because
when the collapse happens, its likely I'll need more arrows than
ever...

if I cant figure out a way to make plastic nocks, I'll go retro,
and devise up a decent working self nock system...

I plan to do something similar on the points, worst case scenario
will be 3/4 inch steel broadheads siezed into a kerf in the shaft with
nylon thread, then varnished or epoxied over...

I've made arrowheads since I was a kid.. Started with metal, also
later learned knapping stone & glass..

one day, when I was working a job, I found a lost arrow in the ditch
beside a road...

the arrow was wood, feather fletch, plastic nock etc. but it had a
home made steel broad head that was siezed and then epoxied over... I
kept the arrow for years, and admired how nice a broadhead its lost
owner had made... it was a good system...

here, I'd use machete steel, which is cheap and available.. And as
there isnt any big game to speak of, I'd go 3/4 inch wide on the
broadheads.. better to keep them smaller to keep them from planing
off, or being too heavy, or using excessive amounts of materials...

I'd cut the steel with abrasive wheels, perhaps rough them out
seperately, then clamp into a stack to regrind to get uniformity...
likely in stacks of six...

it would take awhile to make 144, but worth the doing...

factory made broadheads are expensive now... as is feather fletch..
its time to go around the problem by figuring out ways to make our
own...

invariably the way around modern & convienant, is retro, and doing
the job as a hobby & challenge... the more you make, and the less
you buy, the less you need your day job... thing to remember, is full
retro equals no job.... before jobs were invented, people made what
they needed for themselves... and any free time, benefits from
planning & thinking, or working hard, etc. Were their's....
folks, you've been sold down the river long ago...
a fat slave, is just as much a slave, as a skinny one....

later... Raining, I've got bread baking in the fire pit, trying a
finer grind of corn meal, and some diced up ripe bananas in the mix...
Use flour, salt etc., this batch filled up the skillet pretty good, as
thick wet, as cornbread with leavening when finished... Did a bunch of
dishes at the spring, ground the corn, washed/rinsed some clothes,
and packed in & chopped firewood, all while it wasnt raining...
now awaiting my food for the day... have eaten a few ripe bananas
today, fed a couple to the dog, and the monkeys have run off with
several...

continued........

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Tuesday 30th November 2010.......

Early evening,
listened to short wave awhile, but nothing interesting, so I shut it
off... And slept for a couple hours... Then woke, restarted a fire,
for mosquitos, and now relaxing...

still thinking about normalcy, and primitive weapons... to me
weapons are a hobby... I've always been interested in indigenous and
ancient cultures... so even as a kid began using and making organic
arms... I was raised in a redneck family culture, so got the usual
culture of firearms etc. And taught that milk comes from a cow by the
direct method, and meat isnt made by a machine....

but I really dont like killing anything, except parasites, so to me
weapons became a hobby & a survival skill...

I know how to kill... how to cut a throat, skin, gut, butcher, cut
and wrap, freeze, can, or dry...

but I prefer to get my protiens from nuts & fish...
I'm not an instinctual killer..
and I've long suspected for years that the human genome was moving
away from killing... And I've read things in Enoch which support
that... at least that some of us are becomming non-killers in growing
numbers, while there are those becoming worse killers in fewer
numbers... I suspect natural forces are at work... And that if it
wasnt for nukes & climate change the game could play out long term,
and result in the end, to being a few vampires in the spotlights who
came to a much deserved end, at the hands of a generally peaceful
village...

unfortunately we're running against the war and natural catastrophy
clock... and time seems to be short... And the vampires have nukes,
and are legislating away pitchforks & torches...

the peasants seem to be reacting correctly though... buying more
forks than ever before, and getting higher tech torches...

good job, fellow peasants....

how do you recognize a vampire? thats easy... Theyre those guys on
TV with the suits & ties....

instinctual liars, killers & thieves....
Who come to kill, steal, and destroy....

and promote it as normalcy...

If you havent read the book of Enoch, connected it to Genesis 6, and
Judges 5:20, and realized that the game is alien arrival, well then,
you really dont know anything...

the book of Enoch can be read online for free..
The two best translations are at steve quayle's website.. I've read a
third, couched in king James style biblical english, but it has the
same problems as the king james bible; quaint, out of date, and
difficult to understand unless you were born 400 years ago... the
book of Enoch is mentioned in the bible, and when Christ said "read
the scriptures" during his time they included the book of enoch, and
later editing by the church convienantly removed the parts that were
most likely to enlighten the peasants... the results of that editing
are called the bible...

I hear people talking about being "saved"...
Saved is a verb in past tense... so being saved ahead of the fact, is
like boarding the Titanic
and thinking youre safe because there are some lifeboats, without
bothering to count noses, and compare to number of boats or their
capacity...

being "saved" ahead of the crisis, is like the rapture cult; sounds
good, but its not what is written...

so I think a bunch of backslapping, hippocrit, jargon heads, are in
for a rude awakening...

when its all over, if youre still alive and your neck hasnt been cut,
then youre technically "saved"...

until then, youre making assumptions... possibly, & likely, "fatal"
assumptions....

and personally, I feel I'd be extremely fortunant to survive whats
coming... in spite of a lifetime of collecting survival skills,
being 200 miles from the nearest potential nuclear target, living on
a mountain, in the easy to survive in tropics, and having spring
water, and a thousand food trees planted and beginning to produce, and
other non tree foods planted, and years of experience living on yucca
& green bananas....

if you want to believe youre saved, thats your business.. but I
notice that what Jesus said, seems to suggest a very practical
person... And his advice in Mathew 24 about running for the hills
doesnt seem to jibe well with people's logic that has them saved
automatically no matter what...

he would have said; dont worry, hang out where ever you are, as youre
already "saved"....

I feel sorry for the kids of the saved heads... Likely to end up as
small grease fires after the flash, because their parents were such
bliss ninnies...

Get out of Babylon....

I've heard Mathew 24 being explained on "family radio" as being
about churches... try inserting the words; "nuclear bomb" in line 15,
where it says the abomination of desolation, and see if it makes any
more sense to you... Churches my ass.... and if you believe what
Harold Camping says, its likely to be your ass that gets fried... The
guy isnt just off base, he's out in left field and misleading millions
to their deaths... and the passages he explains as describing the
end of the universe next May, are in fact a description of the effects
of a nuke, if I'm correct... the universe isnt going to end next
May...

more likely its when brother Harold has his retirement party...

"Opps! I was wrong again, thanks for all the money."

making alot of money off being wrong, and misleading people, isnt
much of a guarantee of being saved...

read the bible for yourself, apply the "from space" concept, and see
how it works.... then decide if youre "saved" or not yet...

as Jesus pointed out just before he left, that when he returned,
"people would look up and understand."

whats up folks? is "Heaven" maybe "the Heavens" and when you finally
get it, will it be too late to change your own nasty habits? and will
they likely think kindly of you for going along with normal? The same
normal that led to the destruction of a planet? wouldnt it be better
to rethink yourself now? quit following wolves who bleet sheep
talk...

and I'm taking a personal risk here... The risk of being wrong, and
misleading... could cost me my neck... But I'd rather be wrong and
get some people on the safe side, than be right and keep my big mouth
shut... To save my own neck...

it all makes sense once you get the from space overview... and I dont
care if a billion hippocrits howl for my blood... truth is truth...

read it for yourself.. Apply the thesis... Then think about normalcy,
what it really is, and what should you really be doing?

Chattering about being saved? or getting your buns out of ground
zero, and your head out of vanity land?

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