Sunday, April 4, 2010

Saturday 3rd April, 2010..............

Late afternoon,
just listened to an interview with Dan Winters, a world famous
photographer, on conspiracy theory, interesting interview to hear a
very professional photographer talk about shots released by the
government from 9/11, etc.

I also liked the man's comments about how programmed people are
against believing anything except what they are told by the
government... its like some wife believing her husband didnt cheat on
her after she's diagnosed with AIDS..... wives would know better.....

my feelings on it all are that there are too many unanswered
questions, and I'm not stupid enough to believe in government
anything.... plenty of "out there" conspiracys, but I've also had
the experience of discovering the Bible/aliens trip, after years of
very stong aversion to either subject, and figuring out they went
together and became very plausible, was a humbling experience for
me...

I think before its all over, it will be very obvious to everyone what
fools we have all been...

The older I get, and the more I learn, the better I realize what a
bunch of bullshit we've been fed and for how long... Total bullshit,
since day one..

And I feel very lucky to have stepped outside the box with my life...

to me what is important is the truth... what isnt important is how
long it takes me to get there....

its like the guitar to me, others many time faster learners, much
better, but I dont play the thing to compete, I play the thing
because its where I want to go, and because learning anything is
better than learning nothing as a hobby... I wouldnt know one sports
team from another, but I am learning some chords...

truth is the same way, I do it for me, and if I'm going to be
egotistical, I'm going to use it to get to someplace good...

many laugh at me.... I'm enjoying it too... Its why I do the blog, so
I can make a total fool of myself, and help others in the process...
Class clown effect..

today I lived another day, on just the cost of salt.. I and the dog
ate all we wanted... I have a fire going, the sun is going down, I
didnt hurt anything or anyone today, and I didnt tell any lies..

tomorrow the same....

cant be bad for my Karma....

really I feel sorry for so many.... People too brainwashed to think
for themselves, judging people like me who do, as nut cases...

I aint making any payments, I dont owe anybody much more than favors,
and I sleep good every night, and my days are generally low stress....
its a hell of alot better life than I ever had doing anything
normal.. I try to be thankful every day, I try to help others, and
I'm learning not to let defeats bother me...

actually I'm learning to enjoy some types of defeats... like the
online date fun... Its low calorie, goes nowhere for me, and as long
as I'm honest, the chances of getting nailed by some woman are near
zero... in some ways I see how pathetic it is in today's world... I
see alot of lonely people with out much hope, and I see some sick
people doing fine...

I also know when the crash comes, there will be some women I wasnt
good enough for, make some realizations too late...

and there will be nothing I can do to help them...

they make their choices, they are on cruise control to destiny..

I've realized the benefits of not being into what everybody else is into...

I've realized the benefits of failure, by being a success at whats natural...

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