Sunday 29th November, 2009.......second page

basically what it amounts to, is merchant class is the exploitation
class.... And with the money they get reeming everyone, they
control things like politics and police... and greed having no
apparent limits, the rest follows.... and its my point of some time
back, that Fascism is everything, and everything is Fascism....
well, everything except self sufficiency...

If I have weapons, what do I need the police for?
If I live a healthy lifestyle, why should I be forced by law to buy
health insurance from a bunch of crooked pig fuckers?

Basically the whole concept of civilization is the big lie....

and the bible does mention the traveling merchants...

Gnashing their teeth after the collapse.... no more client Babylon...

I found it interesting learning this morning that there are some
christians mentally putting the space thing together... yup! It
all starts to make more sense once you click on that one... and it
does kinda reinflate the religion somewhat, Christianity was dying
from zooanosis, i.e. Parasitization... its gotten to where the
churches teach courses on how to get rich by donating to the church,
and expecting god to pour gold into your piggy bank like magic in
return.... i.e. they're kind of subverting the bible and Karma, and
playing Spiritual stock brokers for you... just copying the Catholic
church, and every other priesthood since dawn one..... I think the
real idea was to do good works etc..

didnt have that much to do with money or temples......

I kind remember a story about JC collaring some money changers and
giving them the sandal in the ass treatment...

Do you spose he'll think much of the tele-evangalists? vacuuming up
money with emotionally manipulative stories?

hey folks, it all boils down to getting your own trip together...
and if they arent talking space and space elevators, they're off
course by a couple lightyears.....

Its like my son telling me if I pushed the aliens from space issues,
everyone would think I was crazy.. well, I dont care what anybody
thinks....

read; Amos 9:6, or Genesis 6, or Judges 5:20 or check out the
airplanes in Ezekiel 1, with their four faces; holographic decals,
wheels within wheels; Tires on rims, or eyes on the wheels; lugnuts,
etc.

Or the Star that moved and stopped in Matthew 2:9.

or the life extension mentioned in Daniel 7:12, or the Artifact in
Acts 19:35 that fell from heaven.... an image? or Saul's great
light that flashed out of heaven? In acts 22:6, that light was in
broad daylight and burned Saul's eyes... what kind of light comes
from the sky and with a voice? while his retainers heard nothing?

somebody went to alot of effort over a period of thousands of years
to set up Christianity and carry a message foreward in time until
now.... a story of enslavement and freedom, of Passover, read
preparing your bug out kit, I suspect even Noah's Ark has a
purpose.... if I wanted some star colonists, to be ready, I'd want
them to have good livestock, and such....

its the same themes over and over... conquest, corruption,
enslavement, humbling under opression, escape & freedom .... and
appreciation afterwards... the goal of Christianity in some part is
to teach appreciation after the rescue... basically there is going
to be extreme genetic editing, the genocide of innocents will be
replaced by a genocide of the bad guys.... the enslavers will be
enslaved..

get your own trip in order, prepare for hell.....

later, rain soon, played guitar, then put it up... heard a french
motown music program on radio, I've heard it before, sometimes really
good music...
Today they played a song I'd never heard; is it because I'm black?
lyrics about being held back... yeah, sad to say it is some what,
but its relative too, black people were just used for something to
train the white trash to look down on... making it easier to
manipulate them out of their lives and money too... apparent
affluence of credit spending is not real affluence, no matter the
color of the hand holding the card....

and the buying of anything you can produce yourself is enslaving
yourself to middlemen, bureauocrats, and allowing them to leverage
taxes and your time out of you too... as is buying more than you
need.. pretend credit affluence is a very costly vanity...

later, listening to radio.... sounds like
govt/scientists cooking books on global warming, to institute global
govt. and carbon tax.. 2000 leaked documents at wikileak website..
blatent criminal activity... blackballing anyone who
disagreed... so much for scientific method.....

I dont care what the truth says, I want it.....

and if somebody has a countering opinion to a thesis, I want it
examined thoroughly and fairly.. anything less, aint the truth....

"If we're all thinkin' the same, then sombody ain't thinkin',"
(Gen.George Patton)

"If you want a rush, fight tyranny." (Christo Garcia)

basically its all coming unraveled for the Illuminati, unraveling as
they weave... its like a keg of black powder on a wagon, that has
had the plug removed, the wagon is going down the road, and somebody
lights off the powder train back at the start... what happens when
the fire gets to keg?

listening to voice of russia, they've had another train bombing on
a high speed train used by government officials and business
executives...

thats what happens when you create enemies..
eventually they figure out how to get you...

Seattle area, four police shot in a coffee shop... thats an
interesting one... would like to hear what witnesses had to say....
and I pointed out in this blog a year or two back that police were
vurnerable at coffee and doughnut shops... basically if they keep
up the international wars and national control trips, the government
and police will need to go to green zone tactics to survive... yeah,
you can rule the world, as long as you dont leave your fortress....

such is the control versus chaos dichotomy pair...

And the shooting in Seattle prooves my point that homeland security
and police cant run a successful police state in the US... the
Taliban Equivilants are a tich thick there if you rile them up...
who knows what that shooting was about.. but imagine the police
really really pissing off the people... you know, like; trying
Martial law over some bogus crap..

no more doughnuts for the piggies...
they wont like their jobs so much if the public quit politely
accepting tickets, and begin to impolitely shoot them anytime they
make themselves available as targets.... aint gonna work... there
will come a certain level of lead & powder based interaction, at which
those playing enforcers for the status quo, will begin turning on
their masters..

"The use of force sets up resistence." (Tao)

if you start pushing people around, they soon start sniping you from
the brush, or from drive by shootings.. or in coffee shops, or
bombing your trains..

there is revolution in the air.... I think its time to get real
before things get out of hand... its still a bit early, but the
Researchers on internet, the whistle blowers, and leakers, and the
call ins have weaponized modern comms tech.... and my guess is if I
wanted t to start a civil war I'd do two things;

declare martial law, and shut down the internet..

how long do you suppose it would take the fone line pirates to relink
around blockages? or rebel forces to take telephone exchanges and
rig an adhoc internet system in areas outside the greenzones.... I
happen to know that there exist a class of phone line pirates who
make free phone calls by tapping into lines.... A form of risque
entertainment... the thing the status quo forgets, is that the
know-how that boots the technocult is all blue collar or non
management....

We'd have no problems relinking communications... my guess is you'd
see common folk co-operating and pooling knowlege so fast that the
status quo would find themselves at the center of an implosion...

wont work guys.. best you keep you white flags handy...

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sunday, 29th, November, 2009.......

Morning, and a pretty one, checked emails, got some kind of
response from craigslist, not sure if its a response to my ad, or a
response to a resonse to another ad...

anyway, it was nice, teasing & challenging... I answered it... no
foto, so could be talking to a monster behind the door, or a
princess....

was fun to do the exchange though...

I think the email came from Tonga, which is a fun place to get an
email from..... especially one with no foto.... leaves the
imagination plenty to chew on.....
so, some kind of a reaction going on.....

the fun part is the randomness I think... No tellin' what will happen
from where..... no doubt in my mind those ads get looked at, like
something floating in the water to cruising sharks...

plenty of mateless women these days... Myriad reasons, but the
online sollution is obvious, just a matter of finding the right
combination that works...

got an email from my buddy, in response to my crit about $30 a month
membership for online dating services... he thought it must cost alot
of money to keep up a site etc.

I noticed that one site had about 30 thousand postings, male and
female, and if they paid $30 each a month it would be a tad bit of
money... but I dont think the business model is working that good,
as I see on doulike.com not one woman in a thousand has
membership... and I think the male crusing sharks arent paying much,
unless they see one they want to bite...

and considering there are so many, I doubt they bite often... only
when they get a mutual hit from something worth going for....

I dont think its a good business model..... I'd rather get a dollar
a month from all those people and call it better...

greed is self defeating, and thats all you need to know, dont go
there... vanity is no better... its short lived... its the good
things that stand the test of time, and a good affordable
dating/match service planet wide would be a really good thing
and worth doing... I was happy to get the hit this morning off
craigs,,, it was fun.... and I think its a really good idea for
people to cross outside of their own cultures... I'm not much on
world government, but I am positive about one planet one people....

government is presumably based on mutual self
defense from other governments, but anyone with a grasp of history
and logic can see that creating governments to defend us from
governments is more than mildly insane... like creating lawyers to
prevent lawsuits...

And think its better to not create either.... we could create small
family holdings instead, all well armed, and defensive in nature,
and go a long way towards not needing any governments...

The sollution is not, and never will be, in creating more problems.....

Modern civilisation is 98% bullshit.... and that all is about to go
by the wayside......

my buddy also sent me something he found online, some Christian
talking about space elevators and how we are supposed to get one up
before JC's return.... I havent seen that passage yet in the
bible.... but I'm glad the guy is pushing the concept....

and I'm glad somehow that he's made the connection between JC and space.....

later, got dishes done, fire going and food on....
Bath soon.... also got the guitar out...

so will bathe, then play guitar, and then eat... a common ritual....

after that, go check emails, see if I got any more nibbles besides
the message in the bottle from tonga......

its got me thinking about adventures...... you know as a kid I loved
adventure stories of all kinds, but after doing a few, real
adventures, they have lost my interests, basically if you are into
adventure stories, it means what you really need is adventures....
and once you start on adventures, it gets very addictive...

and I've done adventures before in search of women... generally the
adventure was better...

one thing I see people doing alot of on line is just looking for new
friends.. doesnt say much about the old ones...

another thought I had was after seeing a couple hundred pound tatooed
biker chick with a kid or two... I realized the only guys who were
going to go for that one were some big fat biker types who'd lost
their own woman and kids to the lawyers... in other words its kind
of some wierd shuffling going on...lawyers win, kids and parents
lose, replay.......

if we hung all the lawyers, it would probably take all the fun out of
it.... and people would have to just get along and keep their kids
fed or else....

the lawyers have inserted themselves where its nobody's business....
same for government...

I'd imagine alot of marital disputes would be either non existant, or
shorter in duration, if natural forces were allowed to play out....
women who didnt take good care of their husbands and vice versa would
lose them... Which could prove to be very drastic... having the
lawyers and govt involved pretends to help..... generally I suspect
they are only causing more divorces, with pocket filling and power
trips going on....

so I do enjoy knowing the cycles, that we are approaching the final
phase, and soon it will be get even day.... I'd guess future
generations will sell little lawyer ornaments to hang on their
Christmas trees.... complete with little noose etc. to signify
what instinctual liars, killers, and thieves get in due time...
likely be some military officer manikins too, maybe also some jowley
politicians? and some little whorish looking exwife dolls?

I've always figured if I was interested in some woman with kids, I
should carefully question her about her ex husband, surely I'd hear
how terrible he was etc. but being an ex husband my self, I have
some perspective of my own on it... and what I would want to find
out, is who he was, contact data etc. so I could go talk to the
fellow slob..... likely the most educational guy I could find
concerning the woman... Women generaly like to denegrate the ex, &
vice versa.. and if she's got his kids, youre going to have to deal
with the guy anyway, might be easier if you'd had a couple beers
together first thing, he'd be less threatened by it, and you'd have
the darkside of the moon exposed..... could be handy info, and
allow one to formulate a plan in advance, for when she started her
shit.... Nip it in the bud.... and maybe you and him could take the
kids fishing etc.? he and kids would likely appreciate the
visitation, and you'd have a buddy that really understood your
marital problems......

it would also go a long way towards preventing women's shit games,
and they could do it too..... Talk to exwives.....

it would also go a long ways towards seeing the rejects left w/fellow
& fellowette rejects, instead of trashing a chain of decent
spouses....... and I guess we'd need some dickhead manikins for
effigy exhusbands?

The problem with current reality, is that everything points to
civilisation being terminal... the homosexuality, the greed, the
excessive taxes, the police states, the corporate fascism, the
scientistic and Elite eliteism, the Medical Mafia insanity, the
toxic chemical agribiz food, it all points to Uh-oh! Land.....

best you arm up and get mobile... because I dont think the people in
charge are smart enough to figure out that they are the biggest
problem...

control freaks, greed heads, vanity puffs..... arent likely to
figure it out until they see the Guillotine....

later, searched Tonga, was interesting, 75-80% of the women are
Obiese... most obiese females on the planet... also heard they had
anti-Chinese riots and the Chinese business owners packed up and
left... funny how thats a reoccuring phenomina with business
cultures, same thing happened in last L.A. Riot, except it was
Korean store owners...

if one realizes the roots, its that business is a ripoff game
disquised as a straight game... success in business means you've
screwed a whole bunch of people out of some money each... it also
points out why the jewish culture was booted out of place after
place...

(cont)......

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Saturday 28th November 2009.......

Morning, dawn in 45 minutes, have been writing emails and playing guitar...

feeling ok & thinking about hearing yesterday that 40% of the
professional women in Moscow became prostitutes after the collapse...

I think whats coming in the US will be worse.. there wont be any food
to pay them with...

I've been cruising the dating websites, and see the game hasnt
changed much, plenty of women putting on the face..... a few
talking good, but mostly business as usual... I've literally looked
at a couple thousand, only two so far have paid the membership...
that kinda tells the story.... expecting the guy to do everything....
just doll up the face, show some cleavage, make suggestive remarks,
and expect them to fight over you...

so far one fairly nice hit back at me... and several of what my son
described as hieffers.... I had to correct him, hieffers are
younger... them R cows son......

biggest three problems are fat, attitude, and lesbians... i'm into
none of the above...

my own silly mug is up on craigs freebie personals, with a write up
that will steam most women viewers.... fine w/me, thats why I wrote
it, to filter the contestants, and begin laying out ground rules...
I'm not a kiss ass... also my son will be vetting any inflow,
removing the scams, and anything he doesnt like the looks of for step
mom possibilities...

at this point its entertainment... my guess is I'm a bit early on the
curve for a proper unit, that combines decent looks and attitude
etc. we'll need the next dip in the economy for females to begin to
figure out the old game isnt working..

basically the US economy has lost 30% in the last couple years, and
been propped up by theater set politcs and more of the same
insanity......

next dip should be more of a swoop, then maybe a nose dive!?

Dont worry! the squawking heads are going to fix it all, right?

I'm looking forward to a different attitude on the match making
websites... less queens, less party girls, and more begging to be
allowed to practice their best wifey skills... probably a bit rusty
at the concepts, but when the body fat begins to go, the panic will
set in... and they may begin to suggest what good and obiedient
wives they'll be for the guy who can keep their clothes from hanging
so loose over the bones.... most of them could go six months with out
eating... I notice many are already suggesting they arent into
Drama.... I wouldnt call it drama... I'd call it mental
illness...... generally very sick manipulation for head trip's
sake... nope, dont want any of that.. Been there... Not going
back.....

Drama? thats a good one! how bout we call it "Cunt trips", does
that sound more realistic?

yeah, well I'm not into what men pass as shit either... any woman
who answers my ad, better be able to look me in the eye, and expect
to get a direct look back... if I'm going to have to lace up my
boots and get responsible again, so will she have to.....

no shit babe... dont take none, dont give none, and things might work out...

its not a good idea to fly an airplane with shit for a copilot.....

if I'm going into whats coming, its going to be with a good partner,
or no partner.. her choice....

I think its kind of funny, while every body was dancing the hokey
pokey, I made myself worth in excess of a quarter million dollars,
became very fluently bilingual, learned how to operate in the third
world, lost 40 lbs, learned how to grow plenty of food in marginal
conditions, got my son married to a real woman, I learned
complimentary skillsets, I can now live comfortably anywhere on
nearly nothing, I learned more about horses than most people ever
know, have built most of my neoindiginous gear myself, and am just
beginning to accelerate... also got over being totally trashed
emotionally many times over consecutively, and how to control my own
mind fairly good... and got mostly totally ignored by females while
doing it all.....

meanwhile everybody else has lost their ass.....
and trashed their health..
where did I go wrong? and in my spare time write this blog to attempt
to assist & encourage others to get out on their own dream too.....

got an email from my son yesterday, he said he burnt his credit
card..... toxic fumes no doubt.....

bout time.... theres a 2700 year old Chinese saying about credit cards;

"The hard path appears easy." (Tao)

best you all sharpen your pencils and learn self control, and where
to hide your money so the bankers cant steal it......

thats what they are best at, they and government,
its why they hate bank robbers, their natural competition.......

there is also a chinese saying about fascism;

"When the people are ruled harshly, they become cunning." (Tao)

homeland status quo insecurity obviously never got that in their
Police State 101 course....

if they start fucking with us, we start fucking them up...... the
worse they get, the worse we get, and we out number them thousands to
one...

take a lesson from the Irish, a Thousand years of English Arrogance,
and they never quit resisting, and they never quit being a decent
people, and they won, and even Northern Ireland will someday
forget it was ever British...

I suggest the wearing of the Green.... The brits used to hang men &
women for wearing green....
But Patty wears green proud... and the Brits are now a society based
on bogus banking....

resistance is never futile.....
its required by ethics...

my suggestion for the future, is to shade your green camouflage...
no blue and gray this time, no pitched battles... Just ambushes and
sniping... the biggest mistake that resistance fighters make, is
trying to go to the mobile warfare stage... thats where they get
beat bad... follow the irish lead, bring it into the modern era....
keep it insurgent until there isnt anyone to snipe left... look at
what similar tactics have done in Iraq & Afghanistan....

the status quo is losing in both arenas... and wants to expand into
Pakistan? them boys arent too smart there in the Pentagram....

"The use of violence, only sets up resistence." (tao)

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Blog entry; Friday 27th 2009.........

Morning,, just waking up....

thinking about things I've heard on short wave lately.... Two sides;
same shit continues, and people waking up... I hear people coming
to the same conclusions I have, like the centralization vs
decentralization thing.. My point is I think the balance is alot
farther towards decentralization than most would.... for the most
part those on radio are arguing over a slight difference between a
fulcrum zone of capitalism and socialism.... well if you only
combine those two, you get fascism any way you stir the brew.....

Capitalism+ Socialism= Fascism.

yes? Or no? think about it, all they are argueing over is which way
to lean the fascism....

I'm saying we dont really need any of that shit, and so should be
extremely careful how much of what we invite into our lives.. prime
example might be farming tech. where is the balance point between a
hoe and a huge agribiz tractor of several hundred horse power? the
hoe will work, but it also limit one's production enough that to do
bulk staples etc., you'll have to be out there every day working at
it, and can easily be wiped out by a rain lodging your corn, or a
wet spell and fungus taking your beans.. I've done big gardens
before, they take alot of work... most people I know begin to use
technology as garden size increases, and their age advances.. older
people generally go to at least a rototiller... and most growing bulk
go to a tractor... and many have both.... I consider the hoe
to be life insurance.. it works without the technocult.... but it
also should be suplimented if you havent got a group of people
co-operating on the bulk food trip... its why families on farms were
traditionally large, to provide enough labor at peak periods like
planting or harvest times.... basicaly small scale ag was very labor
intensive... I think it is possible to do all by hand with a micro
family... even one or two people could do bulk foods etc. and get
enough, i.e. What you need, and a reserve....

but my thoughts on it are it would be wise to use the tech while its
available to get a larger reserve, and keep the hoe too, another
route might be buying a bulk food reserve and using the hoe too, or
like most on radio, buying a reserve of food and gardening veggies,
and still relying on the system for bulk items... i dont think this is
a good idea....

the system is getting unreliable, as are people..

people still havent made a realization of necesity because the money
still works, and so they worship the golden calf.....

when the fascism, which is a nice important sounding word for
corruption, gets worse, so does the money...

I figure it will be too late by the time people wake up... and the
reasons I am selling my farm and going to a different one are myriad,
but they include being able to add some tech into my neoindigenism to
make up for lodged corn, and unreliable or problematic humans, or
price of boughten food reserve etc... I am seeking a new balance
zone that works better than what I have going... I'm not worried..
either the farm sells and I do it, or it doesnt and I eat alot of
bananas, Casava, and breadnuts... but my point is I think the
balance between man and technocult is now owning a tiller & small
tractor etc. and as things worsen and a collapse looms, one
digresses to the hoe as fuel and repair parts become more difficult...

I fully expect the people in my group to dink around until at least
almost too late... My buddy has gone from zero to 60 lately, within
the last couple years.. from denial to extreme action.. And on all
fronts... others in my group are making progress too, but I am tired
of waiting for help that never comes, and so cashing in my chips on
this farm if possible and starting over at what I think to be the
best balance point for someone operating alone... the root of my
problem is wanting to count on others.. i.e. Socialism, which doesnt
work due to self centered natures... and so I am thinking to up the
capitalism a bit for awhile to increase my technology to allow me to
use remaining time better to do what I think I can....
If the farm sells, I will also likely buy a food reserve.. which at
my diet levels isnt much outlay, less than $500 per year... but I
will buy and properly store enough for a couple years, and try my
business model which should soon make that stored food into a joke,
we shall see... I may get caught by the times, and have to down
scale my visions, but somewhere between where I am now, and where I
think I should head for is where I will end up...
I talked to a realitor yesterday, the third... I tried Century 21,
wanting name recognition, they didnt adequately answer my calls and
emails, I tried another company, and got a lazy half hearted
response, and so yesterday, number 3 try, and we will see where it
goes.....

I also have a residency problem looming... but I know it will work
out somehow, they wont want to feed me in jail... and I am more
than willing to leave if the farm sells, and go elsewhere, or change
gears, and just build a boat to live on and go Ocean Nation.. I've
learned the value of flexibility in dealing with sick realities....

And if I cant make something work on the ground, I know I can do
just fine at sea.... I really dont need to "own" any of the
planet.... I know I can get by fine if I have a roof over my head,
a dry place to sleep and cook, and a place to store what little
materialism I might need.... and I can eat fish, coconuts, or rent
a garden spot somewhere......

the tranquility comes from letting go of any certain outcome, and
letting go of people, and just realizing the basics minus the
vanities....

subsistence means getting low, seeking a balance point between labor
and soup bowl, and learning to like it..

What I know, from my realizations, is that my neoindigenous mindset
allows me to slowly find my path and not lose as much from the
inevitable and all too common failures of life... an example might
be my table.. it all comes apart, and makes a small stack of
boards.... I've had other tables I've made in life, but they got
left behind.. this one is more portable, and if necessary could be
easlily used or just stored on a boat.... I want to build a 24 ft
yurt, and do it the same... all come apart.. Why? Same reasons, so I
have a house I dont have to leave behind, come what may.... one that
will fit on a boat as a small stack of lumber... may have to cut a
special little access in my hull to insert boards into one at a time,
but I can do that.... and sail off some where, taking my yurt,
table, hammock, and my hoe.... If I get another farm and some mech.
fine. but I will design my model to be mobile, i.e. have my
equipment fit on my truck etc. along w/yurt and table....

My point is being mobile minded works for any situation, being
flexible in one's dreams allows weaving one's way through sick
realities and out the far side.. and being more independent keeps
you teflon coated to human problems... basically its all applied
taoism.... learning to let go of ideas until you find something
basic that works....

I'm becomming a fairly calm survivalist, sure of my own ability to
get by somehow.. I work on my neoindigenous projects, knowing that
they and the aquired skills are not dependent on the technocult...
my steel bow when finished can go on the load... having my own act
in proper order from the fundamentals upward is a better design for
sucess than assuming anything... no system, no other person is as
reliable as I am in looking out for me if I apply myself to it...

Much of the problems people are having now are due to wanting to rely
on something bigger and outside of themselves... a system, a job, a
technology, a retirement plan, all boil down to an imaginary Mommy
effect... yeah, well, I dont need mommy or anyone else if I play my
cards right, and mommy looks like she's running off with her new
lover... time for the kid to unmommy himself....

dawn.. Time to go post this..

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Blog entry; Thursday 26th November, 2006.......

Now decentralization has a better track record... when things are
decentralized to the family level, its worked millions of times in
human history...

all boils down to basics.... one man, one woman, one family, and
their connections to their spheres of affection.... so simple it
actually works, unless you insert a squawking heads box to teach
bad habbits...

I hear more and more people on short wave saying they quit watching TV....

also mention of decoupling from consumerism... we are each an atom
in the paradigm shift matrix..

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Blog entry, Wednesday 26th, 2009........

Morning, minutes from noon actually....

got food on, practiced guitar. Sent emails, and searched online for
other date sites....

found more of the same style scam, also a more reasonable $5 a month
site, and got an email from my son offering serious quantities of
help......

I think the dating/matchmaking systems idea is a very good one, just
a matter of getting one that works, to work, and finding a woman
crazy enough to be attracted to me...

should be fun!

so I wrote up my write up, getting real practiced there, and when we
get it up, I'll let you know, where, just in case some beautiful fox
has fallen in love w/my blog, and wants me passionately... (yeah
right!)

I noticed some of the sites were sexually oriented, a turn-off to
me, I love sex, but am more old fashioned about the landing
approach....

I also noticed a site for the over 40 crowd, I cant go there yet,
I'm only 53 going on 17.... I'll take my chances with the wide
field thank you, not into raisins or prunes.......

I dont, and will probably never be able catagorize myself as old....

also checked the doulike.com site, no new hits, so I only have to
apoligize to the pretty 41 year old American blond lady living in
Mongolia, you look very nice to me, but theres no way I'll give
money to an organization that is misleading & deceptional from the
get go.... I would have loved to have been able to know you, so
pretty, and and you looked like a very real person, and into such
good things....

God Damn! the greed heads....

We'll pull what I have up on that site ASAP..... also the related
myspace trip, and shake the dust off my sandals......

if its not radioactive, it will be soon..

I hope the woman in Mongolia survives whats coming......

her and everybody else decent..

later.... Got some ideas.... cant talk about it yet, but I'm
really good at missed logic....... have to do a little experiment....

morning, thursday now, well, I have a personal up on Craig's
list, not sure exactly where, free personals... just in case some
reader is a lythe beauty who has inadvertantly fallen for the
electric coyote...... you'll have to look, and my son is acting as a
prefilter, for scams etc... so be real!

also asked him to pull me from myspace.com and doulike.com, their
business model is sleeze lubricated, And Craigs has links to more up
front sites, and a $5 a month site, so if you are considering mate
shopping online, go there and not to the bait and switch folks at
doulike.com....

a word about online mate shopping, I see it as having great social
benefits.... Its an equalizer, an open market for both men and women,
and as it catches on, its likely to cause alot of problems for
governments ripping people off on residency paperwork costs.....
people get fed up quickest with the shit that affects them personally
the most.... and with the current stats for marriage failures, my
buddy said near 90% in an email this very morning, people will be
looking for better options... the current dating sites are very
crude, obviously because they are more focused on money than
results.... there are reasons marriages fail, first is outside
pressures from expectations created by TV programming, i.e. Not
keeping up with the joneses.... second is Feminist attitudes, and
last but not least is males falling in love with completely
undeserving slitches....

all of these could be gotten around with a really well designed mate
finding online system...
The current system relies on foto and hormones....

a better system would include a simple psychological profile, and
give a potential for success score.. which could be fine tuned over
time by tracking the people that linked up.....

also people jumping to other cultures for mates are less likely to
have standard expectations, and I reccomend for survival reasons that
if possible you move to the third world mate's country rather than
vice versa.... stay out of ground zero zones.....

and guys falling in love with undeserving types/feminists etc. can be
prevented by the same system at least in part... more compitition and
more communication could go a long ways...

like the hits results gotten by the Russian woman who was humble, and
said; "I good housewife."

an endearing statement to any man, in todays world of nasty cunt trips.....

I got complimented on my latest write up by my buddy, he's watched
and helped in the process....

I didnt leave much room for doubt in the minds and hearts of women
readers, & the feminists will be pissed cats.... When they read it...
and it will be a learning experience for most women...

good relationships are possible... but they require both partners
having their heads in the right space.....

its a very narrow path to success...

my guess is the best things you could do, are to first set up a
framework for negociation, i.e. Ground rules, then put the TV out
on the curb, and have an agreement you both work together for self
sufficiency, and to get totally away from anything money related....
i.e. our goal is to live somewhere cheap, and grow or make as much of
what we can realistically do.......

issues are programming and wasted time spent watching the boob tube
instead of being in our bodies together, and to extract the
relationship from the technocult for the most part, and remove its
money stresses, and the negociating framework is to stop fights...
why fight if you can correct problems in a more adult fashion...

gotta have the right person too..... no chance at all with liars or
feminists or other nasty habits....

anyway, we'll see what happens this time...

should get more hits, have my silly assed foto, last time no foto on craigs....

I'm no beauty, but one does like to see who they are comming with...

plenty who say all the right things, and look all the wrong person....
also those who say and look good, and are still all wrong...

A partnership is a dependency.... undependable partners are a nightmare....

ask me how I know...

anyway, interesting times to have a help wanted ad out.. things sked
to go off the deep end soon... I wonder how many women are starting
to reassess reality, lots most likely... heard a woman on short
wave yesterday, who grocked, a bright bulb...

My guess is there are plenty starting to realize how bad things are
likely to get... and looking for a way out of the trap..... women
have a long history of riding off with men.... its a formula thats
worked good for them...

start packin' your bags girl, who ever you are....
Keep the baggage and the heart light.....
Because theres a long ride ahead, and many rivers to cross, before we
get to safety......

The problem with most modern women is they've been spoiled... well
thats about to end, as the technocult collapses, they will decide one
by one, a good man is better than a bad culture....

alot of people going dependent on the government, and the government
is the least dependable thing ever done..

heard yesterday Obama's gift to the rich bankers is more money than
spent by the federal government in the entire history of the US.....
gee? thats alot of money to give away to the leaches to keep them
sucking hard...

you dont suppose that kind of money would have gone a long ways to
put people in small houses, on small farms?

the woman yesterday on short wave, Catherin austin fitz, at;
solari.com explained it as a battle between centralization freaks,
and decentralization forces... should sound familiar to my
readers....

decentralization is the correct answer...

centralization inevitably leads to total colapse and anarchy, as
proven thousands of times in human history.. if you want a
collapse, first you have to build a civilisation... no
centralization, no collapse... think about history, what is it? Its
about endless attempts at central control, all of which failed
miserably over and over....

meanwhile, people have been living on farms and growing food in China
for over forty centurys, as centralization failed over & over &
over...

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blog entry; Wednesday, 25th November, 2009.....

morning, after one AM, awake.... slept while it rained, things are
fairly drippy...

I think the coming collapse is going to be much faster than the fall
of the Roman empire.. there are comparisons, but this movie is going
to be a lot more complicated , and when it goes, go harder, and
faster, & deeper by orders of magnitude....

I think the Rancher's predictions in the bible are spot on.... sad,
but highly likely...

There is much discussion on short wave about these very issues, but
not from my perspectives of the skygods etc... the Christians are
all just sure they are "saved" ahead of the curve by their own
beliefs.... maybe they are right, but I wouldnt count on that
myself.... I've read enough in the bible to know we're in for hell,
and that those who get saved are those who go thru all the shit, and
are alive and still sane and good of heart when the game is
concluded... I assume no such luck as to think I'm a for sure
survivor and starship criteria good guy.. I realize the game's
overview, but I also realize the seriousness of the situation...
I also realize the overview of the teachings now.. that the
individual is what creates the collective, and what I do affects it
all, and what everybody else does also affects me....

I've done plenty of not good things in my life... but the good news
is its been a short list, and now that I understand the game better,
I will struggle harder to keep it from getting any worse....

I can also fine tune myself.... and no, you wont see me in a Church
glad handing other sinners, backslapping and praising the lord every
few words... I'll face myself alone, and in a humble manner, I dont
need a support group of like minded hypocrits.... I'll deal with
it on my own, the problems are mine, just as the sollutions need to
be....

And no, I wont be counting on the Christ to save my hairy ass....
I'll count on myself, and when he shows up try to be ready & able to
lend a hand with whatever tasks are appropriate to the moment....
how can I help? Will be my attitude...

and I will not wait until then to start trying to help...

I dont think things are going to be eternally blissfull for awhile
yet.... doesnt seem to be in the immediate script.... I have
some free time thanks to living as a brush rat, not much I can do to
save the world etc., although I have come up with some creative
concepts, and published my speculations far and wide....

I appreciate muchly the warnings and wisdoms in the bible....
somebody went to great expense to enlighten me..

I'll not insult the sacrifices and costs by getting into social clubs
or jargon.... information takes up little space, and so I can store
what I've learned where there is no apparant room; in my fat head....

My buddy and I were speculating about the ranchers the other night via
chat & email... wondering if we were entertainment? or horses to bet
on? and all I can think, is I dont know what the reality is, but I
can grasp what I should be doing now, and thats gnawing & clawing my
way towards survivability, and towards doing what I can to stop it
all... I dont expect to turn the tide... But I do expect to
encourage a few to be better prepared.... we shall see... its all I
can do... for now....

daybreak, went back to sleep.... woke thinking about humans
are.... living with the Latins has been a good study, as after
being fooled by them up front for years, finally figuring out the
game, one realizes its the same in one's own culture, and then goes
on to realize one carrys the same attributes within one's self...

When I first got here I ran into a guy who had been here for years,
and asked him how the local were?

"Inconsiderate Liars!" was his response.... by this time I'd
already had major problems with some real shitheads, but I still
considered them as individuals..... and the longer I was here, the
more problems I had with more people, and the more time I had to think
and observe, and the more I got to compare the Latin's trips with
trips from people of my own culture.... my friend was right, they
were inconsiderate liars, and alot more things all related to those
two words..... they had a great false front, "Lujoso" is the local
word, i.e. they all dress up to look as good as possible, a false
front is a lie.... they also trashed each other & foriegners in
business every chance they got .... absolutely no scruples.....
friends, family, foriegners, all the same.... and it took me about
14 years to realize there really was no bottom limit to local
sleaze.... foriegners are the preferred meat.....

Then by comparing with my own culture I started connecting dots....
and it was all there... the egocentric inconsiderate, the money
spent on clothes, the screwing of others....

the latins are good immitations of first world people... and its the
immitation part thats what allows us to see into their games.... And
also by comparison see into our own...

then I got to looking in the mirror.. I'm not much into clothing,
nor do I like lies, or ripping people off, but its a matter of
degrees... how good am I?

well not as good as the part of me from the neck up likes to think I am.....

then I started getting ephinany..... putting it all together,
adding Tao, and Bible, and Buddha into the stew by the pages,
looking at the wierd guy in the mirror, studying every body else too,
and realized the wisdom/enlightenment paradigm.... which can be
most simply stated; "We're all shitheads!"

just varying degrees of the animal....

and the Elite? just the most successfull inconsiderate liars....
diplomacy? Beautiful lies.....

pagentry? Lujoso........

fashion and styles? false front....

sucessfull businesses? ripping off everybody....

decency? a short quick coffee break from reality.....

hey! folks, we're all screwed up! now everybody stick out their
index finger and point at the nearest person they know who is really
screwd up.....

you know what? every body would be pointing at somebody, and
everybody would have somebody pointing at them.... and not enough
exceptions to make an idol TV show out of.......

Thats why they have them sing etc. not enough human decency on the
planet to run an hour a week program on....

anyway, all this being realized... and in the process achieving both
the wisdom of knowing others, & the enlightenment of knowing one's
self, it becomes acutely obvious we are headed for disaster....
how can you build a technical civilisation on such building blocks?
will it be wonderful and good? or just lujoso? and a big lie.....
its garbage folks, all garbage.... from the richest man on the planet
to the poorest, our two main products are garbage and human
excrement....

and nobody gets out alive.....

and if the bible is correct, we are on the cusp of great promise;
immortality, and breaking into space.... eternal life and Jacobs
ladder, or Elijah's firey chariot into the sky, or Ezekiel's
airplanes with 4 holographic decals.....

but we are at the choke point, to proceed, we have to make it past
trashing the planet, trashing each other, trashing ourselves...

We have to quit producing so much garbage, and we need to find a
better use for human excrement than just being piped into the nearest
river, or barged out to sea, treated with toxic chemicals, and made
pretend cleaner........

do we need a godzillion dollar tax on carbon? no... we need to
untax whats good and natural..

do we need glittering cities? no, we need humble farms......

The Bible says it, after the clean up the people will be living on
the land and growing their food...

anyway, I need to go check my emails etc....

please look in the mirror, try to do more than apply make up, or get
your hair just right...

think about the person inside..... imagine how they could be a better
human today than they were yesterday... then give your idea a try....

I'll give you a clue... it all begins and ends with honesty...

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Blog entry; Tuesday 24th November 2009............

Evening, eleven O'clock....

slept for awhile, now awake, put some wood on the fire and thinking
about the my space/doulike website, and how misleading it is, and
what a sleazy business model..... I dont have alot of online
experience, coming at it as a white guy trapped in a third world
perspective etc. and the only reason I bothered with the site was
because the way it was set up one got the impression basic service was
free, and improved service was pay...

Basically its a Stallion trap, like the indians would build, a
corral with a mare in heat, this case thousands, and once you get
inside, they close the gate on you and its economic castration
time...

I wouldnt reccomend the service to anyone, I suggest if you want to
use a pay for use personals site you go to one thats more up front
about it, not misleading, and isnt sucking you in first and then using
very manipulative psych techniques to extract money... $30 a month
is an incredible sum in most of the third world, one seventh of
humanity lives on $30 a month more or less... so what they are
doing, is using nice looking women to extract large sums of money
from guys in the first world by creating the impression of a free
service, and getting the women to be able to post foto and blurb for
free..... many of these women are very poor.... many are supporting
kids at third world levels... and the whole site is a perfect example
of the taoist point about wealth extraction creating poverty... the
whole reason poverty exists, is because the entire economic system
is designed as a wealth extraction device, with the few, in this case
the operators of doulike.com, extracting excessively from the
many....

The way the site works, one is confused by how really poorly
designed the operating system is, how poorly it functions, and all
I can say is they have alot of nerve charging that kind of money, and
its obvious the reason the site is so glitchy and disfunctional, was
because all the focus was on the ripoff, and non on functionality...
if it was $5 a month it would be overpriced..... And I suggest
the site be boycotted by anyone with the least personal integrity,
just on principles, and that its best use in real terms, is as an
online example for anyone studying internet or other business models,
of a real sleaze bag operation...

I know about the other more up front $30 or so a month dating
services... I thought they were bad.... I now realize I hadn't a
clue what low was...
That they were overpriced and used people's hearts and sexuality to
extract money was bad.. but the misleading intro appearances, and
manipulative techniques of doulike.com are unlikely to be "improved
on" anytime soon..

if you want to study an online preditory "Viper" capitalism example,
by all means visit the site...

so... a fun learning experience for me... and I grok its time to
use that best of all filters when one encounters sleaze in business,
i.e. dont give them any money, and give them plenty of bad word of
mouth, which is why I am writing about it here.. providing an
articulate voice for a bunch of humble third world people with hopes
of a good partner, many poor women with kids, perhaps widows too...
who's needs and desires, physical appearances & sexuality, are
being used to manipulate others into stupidly paying for a chance to
connect up with them.....

humanity is really sick, doulike.com is a classic example of that...
and prostitution is more honest and moral than this....

So I guess its time to hitch up my pack, and take my business
elsewhere... back to craigslist, and maybe do a bit more seaching of
personals websites, now I have this experience digested..

and hopefully the vignette on this blog has barbecued a vulture
somewhat, to coin a phrase...

and I wondered why it was so thick with white women.....now I know....
they are the women most likely to think the least of someone having
to pay $30 a month to try to connect with them... any third world
woman or man would consider that sum absurd.. and shows perfectly
why the third world even exists....

Well, all I can say, is I'm damn glad I dont have the Karma of the
site's owners and operators, I suspect when the ranchers come back as
per the bible, there will be some vultures on the barbecue...
them...... they obviously have no fear of God, and no realizations
of gods being skygods etc.

Oh! Thank you great spirit for the experience... and the ability to
express it verbally in an understandable manner..

yes folks, consumerism is the feeding end of fascism..... the less
you buy the more freedom you create.... and the more you buy or use
the economic system, the more fascism & tyranny you feed into...
self sufficiency is more than a creed for archaic luddites, its a way
out of the cave that keep others from starving to death lost in the
dark too....

And its also an example of why my focus on neoindiginism functions so
well, after every disapointment I have it to go back to for a base
of operations....

and another word on the mating game... the primary reason I have
lived alone for most of the 15 plus years, is because I didnt want to
have to live up to some woman's inflated by TV economic
expectations.... all the third world women want a first world man
etc. and are contemptuous of anyone not running the rat race....

so I may be alone, I may be crazy by most people's standards, but I
am wide awake after sleeping fitfully the nightmare of the big lie,
and the american dream....

It's all going to collapse folks... human psychology being what it
is.... money is alot worse drug than anything else on the market...
I suggest you too begin using your hopes and hobbies to exit stage
left... good always triumphs over evil.... why? because evil
invariably collapses in upon itself taking both victims and
perpetrators into the abyss...

welcome to Apocalypse's planet, do fasten your seat belt, put on your
helmet, body armor, check the clip in your pistol etc. put a few
more arrows in your quiver, sharpen your knife, etc. Etc......

because the collapse is dependent on the business model... and from
what I can see, the overall human business model is a sick one...

Well, I did get the limbs primered today for the steel bow.... I
will leave them at that stage now, until I get the rest of it built...
so they'll get scuffed and dinged up in the building process, but
when it all comes together, I can sand, recoat with more primer,
and paint them last thing before the bow becomes a wall hanger.....
its a fun project, way out in left field, but I do know one thing;
it will hunt rabbits if I need it to..... its like all my
neoindigenous projects; tangible and real gains towards security,
whilst the world goes mad around me...

Its like my billy club... I had a hunk of Cortesa, and some years
back put a couple days of hobby time turning it into a billy club,
with leather grip, wrist lanyard, etc, all very nicely done..
now I've never hit anything with it, may never, who knows? but I
do have it.... and someday it may thump a few fish heads.....
figurative or litteral....

its like so many projects I do... sometimes I collect pieces for
years, and work on them for days on end, but when finished I have
them.. and they may be absurd now, but a club, or a gaff hook, or a
spear, or a bow might be handy things to own in due time.... like my
tools w/cortesa handles, they'll be there when I need them....

its all working towards the same goal... like my recent project
cutting down the bakelite handled knives into other styles.. I have
them now, very durable knives, which will last generations, not
take up much room on the load, and could become very handy in a post
collapse world....

its all an example how the logic works... be it bow & arrows, or
learning to play a guitar etc., its all a means to the same end..
being prepared.... and after the apocalypse, do you suppose the
skygods will do all the work? Or us? think!

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Blog entry; Monday, 23rd, November 2009........

Evening, sundown, raining gently....

had fun today wife shopping... cruised Brazil some, found some fun
lookin' ones.... several nice older women... including one w/a good
attitude... no shortage of young party sluts, less lesbians, all
different colors & types....

was a nice place to cruise, but obviously plenty of pretty women I
dont want at all....

I also started into Bulgaria, that seems nice.. will know more in
due time....

I am starting to think about just what it is I want in a woman...
main criteria is not young & beautiful, read; problematic....

looking for a good wife type...

and just what that is in my mind I'm not quite sure... but I do
know I'm not alone, I saw the number of hits the Russian woman got,
who said; "I good housewife."

music to male ears... yeah, fed up w/feminism, I want a woman thats
a woman, and does womanish things... you know; has a sweet
personality, keeps the house picked up and clean, works in the
garden, looks nice, smells nice, feels nice....

no ideology or agenda.....

one who tries to look nice for me... even when we stay home...

we shall see... its a fun hobby...

plenty of countries left to check out.. Just getting started....
what I am seeing mostly is white women.. plugging all the sites....
not exactly what I want... color isnt important, its pretty &
attitude, and way too many of the white girls have serious head trips
going.... the fun part is after days of looking at beautiful women,
I'm getting used to it, and alot less impressed with pretty, and
more impressed with practicality....

morning.. got the myspace/doulike website to function finally, not
easy as a virtual moron... and also learned what the scam was......

no comms possible w/free service unless one party is a paying member...

and they want about $30, what I eat on for a month, or 2X my fone
bill, so I can connect with another warm & caring human....

you know, considering how disfunctional the site is, how poorly
designed, etc. $5 a month would be a rip off..... the service is a
great idea, the greed level undoubtably reserves their place on the
banquet table in hell.... basically its the worst kind of business,
using people's hearts as leverage to rip them off with.... no scum
could possibly be lower short of murder.... maybe drug pushers? I
dunno....

Sad, and had a nice lady that I liked her foto instantly hit on me
back..... not a thing I can do, got other parasites here, my
Visa card only works in Costa Rata...... they wouldnt want me to be
able to spend my money outside their economic prison....

you know, the future is really easy to see... more and more sleaze,
more absurd laws, until it finally ruptures like a 500 lb cancer
tumor....

its like I was thinking this morning w/new health care laws soon in
US.... throw me in prison for 5 years, fine me a quarter million
dollars if I dont want their Medical Mafia insurance?

Well, I aint fuckin' doin it, and if they want to come arrest me,
they can arrest a dead body... because its time to fight folks...
because if you dont; they will slowly choke us all to death with
their shit anyway...

I got out of the US, 15 years ago.... thats vintage wine now...
The US is mouldy grapes in comparison today... had an email
exchange w/my buddy, and he repeated how astounding the acceleration
into tyranny is....

ALL I CAN SAY TO ALL OF YOU, IS;

die free.......

if thats all you can do, do it...

according to the Tao Te Ching, revolution comes when life isnt worth
living.....

well, we are long past that point, the rat race sucked years ago, its
why all the suicides and happy pill survivalists..... when you
have to take frontal lobotomy pills to handle the shit, its time to
bust free...

heard a thing on short wave this week, about a now dead elite
futurist, name is slipping my mind...

anyway guy suggested in the future there would be three classes of
humans; the Elite, then a race of slaves, and last a race meant for
human sacrifice to soak up the blood lusts of the slave class....

8ertrand Russell?

well, I suspect the statement is really what the elite want,
retarded slaves etc. but I dont think its them with the blood lusts,
I think its the elite... they are the preditors, they are who
creates the economic system to make our daughters and wives into
their whores, and its them, & not the working folk who plan, start,
and perpetuate endless blood & lust & greed wars........

and who will their human sacrificial race be? Muslims? Blacks?
Indigenous peoples? The poor? or those intelligent enough to see
them for the vile and putrid demons they are?

And do you suppose they will use their slaves as beaters on the
drives? to flush out free people?

and get everybody reporting on everybody, and the death squads making
nightly rounds, microwaving houses so their inhabitants either run
out to capture, or sizzle and pop in their hide out?

these people are really sick folks.... thats where its all headed...
resonable sounding experts slowly working things towards having the
rights to cut your daughter up and eat her alive....

no limits, they have no limits... their only limit is what we will
take before we hurdle our own natural inhibitions against killing,
killing them instead of killing each other for them....

Vampires in the Spotlights, pitchforks and torches, and very sharp
hardwood stakes, and good mallets.... and burn their corpses to
ash.......

because the longer they are allowed to continue, the worse its going to be...

the future is now....

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Blog entry; Monday 23rd November 2009.....

The bad news I have for you about relative IQ, is that its not that
some are so smart... its that everybody is so stupid...and very few
are intelligent enough to realize that, especially in themselves...

Einstein suggested human stupidity was infinite...

I think its much worse than that, but just supposing he was right on
the numbers, to be infinite, what percentage of humanity would have
to be being stupid what percentage of the time?

Yup! 100%, 100% of the time..... he was tounge in cheek on the
statement, but remember, the best joke invariably points out certain
truth..
And Einstein was decent with math...

folks we aint smart.. We just think we are.....

and we are about to prove that statement in a big way..

the ultimate IQ test is survival.....
and I dont think we have much chance....

best you begin rethinking yourself.... might help your odds of a
passing score...

anyway, daybreak in a half hour... my buddy had never visited a
dating network website.... he's been married a long time to a woman
he's loved since highschool... trapped like a rat! but he did get
a grok on the website, and the amount of potentially problematic
female trouble boggled him.... I can be smug about it, knowing I
have a whole planet of women who might want me for their personal
victim and useable device, but only one of them gets all the dance
steps right enough to snag & bag the sucker and take him home for
supper and breakfast...

so ha! Ha!........... we'll see what really happens....

all I know at this point, is when the farm sells, I'll be able to
go anywhere on the planet and bring back a woman, or stay there
myself... so I see the intirim as a test bed for the marital one...
which woman will decide I'm her guy? I havent a clue... it will be
the one who grasps the reality and puts it to best use... and the
only way for one to beat the test, is if she decides to end run the
farm sale and get here ahead of the other slitches and snag me from
their jaws...

and I'm generally more attracted to more indigenous types.... the
ones least likely to have the money to do that....

so I see it as an experiment... the mating game is an interesting
one, as both parties are in fact bait, trap, and victim all at
once... some poor addled woman who decides she has to have me, also
has to put up with me to pull that off, which is easier said than
done...

I'm not in my twenties anymore, and I've learned some amazing things
about relationships....

plenty to keep a woman battling alligators, instead of her doing
that to me...

for a young man a woman equals a disaster...
For an older man, a woman is a convienance.....

you see, us guys eventually figure out their shit...

and I've had 15+ years alone to learn mental centering...

I still have my heart.. it's been beaten to a bloody pulp several
times, but I've grown some shell around it; much dented armor....
but the jewel is still pulsing with the sacred flame... and the right
woman could warm herself by that fire if she was smart enough to get
in out of the storm by going there....

we shall see... now on the path...

I'm looking forward to seeing if I get as many hits as the ugly
lesbians.... if I do better than the pretty transvestites, I'll feel
OK.... my guess is it will be a fun and adventurous process, whereby
I maybe come away with a decent woman....

they are out there, and the humble Russian housewife got an
incredible number of hits.... I wonder if the rest of the women will
pick up on her formula? hey bitches! Wake up! if you want a man,
you have to be loving and humble and thankful.... we do come with a
price, and there are things we do want, and for the Russian
housewife theres thousands of party girls who got bypassed.. I
dont want no party girl, I want a good wife.. party girls are just
short term users... they use you, you use them, and both end up
feeling used, and go to next game...

what do men want besides sex? appreciation.....

not much of that these days.. plenty of sex, near zero appreciation..
which is the most scarce commodity?

there are women who do express appreciation for men on the website..
but not many of them... I suspect its the ones who have had good
brothers & good dads.... sometimes they even post secondary fotos
with their dad in it too.... "this is the guy that taught me the
real values of love."

anyway, its dawn, and I'm going to go post this....

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Blog entry; Saturday, 22nd November 2009......

Afternoon, rain shower and thunder boomers..

just got food cooking, will be done in an hour..

was wife shopping online again... hit Russia, Romamia, and
Taiwan, also hit Barbados...


Russia had slow connections, took forever to load things, women
very pretty, but few I really liked, there was one, pretty,
humble, claimed to be a good housewife, would have been my choice...

I looked, and she'd already got thousands of hits... yup, pretty,
& humble are a winning combo with the guys.....she got alot more
hits than even the stunning beauties... Romania is a place I
hear on short wave, so I was curious, what their women looked like,
pretty girls with brown hair.....

Taiwan was nice, plenty of nice women.....

Barbados was different, a few I was atracted to, but I read what a
bunch had to say, and got the impression they were much better
people than I am.....

Ran into a strange one listed asia, I suspect australia, brown red
hair, hazel eyes, more red than my coloring but very similar...
and her self description was shocking, it was like reading about my
twin sister... she was pretty, no stunning beauty, but definitely
nice... bazaar part was her hits; likely in top five on the planet
of what I've seen so far... tens of thousands of hits...

I gave her a few... she'd be one I'd feel gifted with, but boy is
that an odds against game....

Taiwan was nice, because it wasnt plugged by white women.... I think
most of australia must have listed herselves under asia... I wish
they wouldnt do that, I'm not perticularly interested in white women,
and prefer they'd listed in home country, so I could find something
different.... the white girls are more than pretty, but I want a
woman who isnt arrogant....

like the russian housewife, I hope she goes to a guy that really
really deserves her...

I see plenty of women I like, but know I wouldnt interest 99% of
them... I also know it will likely be a year or more before my
farm sells and I can get in wife trouble...... I see both sides of
that dichotomy... bad side is I will see alot of good women go past
me, good side will be I will have time to get to know all kinds,
and communicate a long time with which ever ones decide they like
me....

I think it will be a good experience, I'm way, way used to
disapointments in life, so watching good women I'd love to have,
get away from me, will probably feel normal.....

I think what will be the most shocking to me, would be if I did find
somebody that worked out..

I wouldnt know how to deal with that.....

what I do sense is that some women R figuring out there is a
problem... I see them saying things to let the guys know they arent
the same as the lesbians.... I think the tide is about to turn
against them..... I've had lesbian friends before, the dyke types
usually hate me with a passion, but the soft types like me
generally...

I'm not at all sure why.... I think the hard core feminists read me
instantly, and realize I dont fall for their line... and the softer
ones see me for my attributes..... basically a not macho guy,
calm, non violent, artistic, natural.....

I remember going to a party years ago, there was this dyke type I
knew, friends of friends etc. and she comes up to me, a group of
people, and gets in my face, & brags she hadnt bathed in a
month..... i.e. Trying to tweak or impress or intimidate me... I
just calmly said; "Thats real nice Vicky." she didnt like the
perfectly flat reaction... every body else just kind of didnt
say anything... it was a funny vignette...

I suspect part of why the dyke types dislike me at first sight,
is because I dont register an attraction to them.... they dont
realize how narrow my attraction band really is or they wouldnt be
so insulted.. that I'm not attracted to them likely reminds them
why they're dykes, cant get a date.... its not my fault, but they
dont see that....

I'm artistic enough it affects my ability to be turned on by
women... they have to have some artistic qualities to face and
build, or I'm just not interested.....

it makes cruising the on line dating thing interesting.. I get to
study my own attractions..

women are very sensitive to my vibes... I once ran into an
italian/Tica prostitute in a bar, I was only there for the beer, as
was my buddy, but she tried to make a sale to no avail, but we did
chat, and she started talking about italian cooking, I love
cooking, and it gave me loving feelings towards her, and she
picked up on it instantly with out me saying a word, she was shocked,
and said; you were just now a little in love with me!

I nodded, and soon left.... spaghetti sauce is one thing, who she
was as a person was another, and how she looked was yet another
matter..

I could be in love with just the part of her that was into cooking, I
wasnt attracted to her physically...

but it shows how sensitive women are to that....

morning, technically monday.. worked last night via chat system,
w/my buddy trying to get
my space account set up, to be able to set up a doulike.com account
for my wife shopping spree around the planet.. a real pain...
the guy works w/computers everyday, has been online for years, and
struggled for an hour to boot the myspace account, which eventually he
got, and was stymied on the doulike page due to our photo being not
the right size etc... so will have to get another photo and send,
requiring help from another person and another day or two....

computer tech is still in it's infancy... mostly due to bad design
of software and operating systems.. web pages are generally moron
specials... some guy who can write a program gets an egotrip going,
overly complicates everything, and the world suffers his shit
until a competitor manages to up stage him by creating a better
simpler, more efficient trip that actually works, and all the
clients gravitate to it out of utter frustration with guy A's totally
screwed up shit, i.e. A reflection of his ego problems...

same description applies to operating systems, software, and web
pages... Ego & vanity induced disfunctionalism... just because you
can create garbage, and litter the virtual landscape with it by the
shiploads, doesnt mean you should...

the best program is the one that does the job with the least command lines..
The best operating system is the one that everything works all the
time, there are no frustrating pop ups, and it will mesh fine with
anything else hard or soft, and the best webpage is one that isnt
cluttered, is organized logically and simplistically, that anyone
reguardless of experience level can get to work flawlessly in
seconds...

sounds like I've been smoking virtual opiates to anyone familiar
w/state of the art...

my buddy said some hot blond popped up wanting to challenge my IQ
scores... he thought it must be an advertisement.... I thought that
was funny... sure babe, I'll coverse on that one, first lets start
by defining IQ..... then set some parameters we both agree too..
then let me teach you some things in the process, about Intelligence,
and before its over we wont need silly numbers that evaluate how
well I or you were programmed, you'll admit I'm more intelligent
than any test you ever took, and that your focus on numbers was
silly and immature..

I can usually tell another person's IQ relative to mine in
conversation with them.. I've never had a conversation with
anybody who could dominate me... only close once.... and the guy
was a total jerk, so I had fun with him.... I doubt he's lived it
down to this day... thats what humor is about sometimes,
establishing mental pecking order.....

Even Kings fear comics.... a good pointy joke can conquer the
minds and hearts of a nation much faster, better, and cheaper than an
invading army, and spill not so much as a single drop of blood...

am I all that intelligent? no..... I'm sure there are a million
people on the planet better..

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Blog entry; Saturday November 21st, 2009........

Morning, eating, nice day... practiced guitar, learning rose in
spanish harlem & guantanamera... feeling good about the guitar...

its something I enjoy, and a life long goal I'm finally making
progress on..

also did an hour of online surfing for a mate..... was in
Mongolia again, wading thru the fat white chicks, mostly looking for
nice eastern types... also marking nice white and black women...

finding plenty I like, but I know at my age etc. my come backs
will likely be few, but I'm giving all the ones I like as people
their shot.... and book marking the ones I really like, to make sure
they get my hit when I actually get registered.....

its been good for me emotionally, so many years with so many limits,
and so many dissapointments....

so many people letting me rot.........

and I'm open to the future, I would have no problem at this point
selling out here, and going someplace else... I dont care where I
live, as long as the climate isnt too harsh, and I can do the things
I like to do, & it isnt ground zero.......

Mongolia looks nice, albeit cold..... (have a lizzard on my foot,
he just walked full length over me, no fear, I said hi! To him)

anyway, the reason I like the online trip is it's hope factor...
you see, I'm planning a nice 2nd mid life crisis..... the first
helped alot, and I figure another could too..... I dont fear
change, I tend to like it....

and I've given up on others...... from now on only counting on me....
done made it thru the fields of dispair from being shined on and
lied to, now in the foothills of adventure, and huffing up some
energy for the stiff climb ahead.......

I've gotten what I own down to the point It would all easily fit
into a boat, or on a couple pallets or in a shipping crate.... so,
we'll see what really happens, but I am insisting on change...

anyway, hitting all kinds of women I like, beauties, plain janes,
all colors etc., its fun.... maybe will be fun for them too.....
I really apreciate the ones who have good things to say about guys,
we arent all bad, and if I judged all women by past
relationships, I wouldnt be looking..... what I have learned, is
it pays to be picky.... pretty is only one criteria, character and
integrity are others.... and any woman I get serious with is going
to know from the get-go that I'm not going to put up with headtrips,
manipulation, or excess negativity..... and if they want to spout
feminists propaganda, thats fine with me, as long as they dont mind
hearing my opinion too, which is the result of thinking and
experience, and not something I picked up third hand, that
originated with someone too ugly inside & out to get a date....

and I'm not into fat chicks.... I'd rather ride the scooter!

I think about half the women on the planet need to be given six
months in a Chinese run
re-education fat camp..... kinda like boot camp, only more
exercise and less feed, and electroshock refrigerator therapy,
where to get anything to eat, they have to take some voltage to open
the door, that increases over time......

no oil, no sugar, no fast foods.... no sofa, no TV, no hot baths,
unless you count the sauna just before the ice/slush pool.....

I think maybe some attitude training could be a positive.... no
negativity allowed for the entire 6 months, you know, teach them
some manners, give them classes on how to have nice relationships
etc. and the ones that dont quite get it, can be recycled back at
the beginning.... maybe after a few years, even the worst ones would
make nice wives? if not, let them stay there.... it would make the
world a better place....

there should be some similar place for guys who are bad.... it
really pains me to see good women with total assholes who mistreat
them.. some want it, some deserve it, but many dont..... I think
where women fall down is their vanity... guys with good looks and/or
money tend to be problematic.... and women who are social whores
often pay a nasty price for their arrogance....

me? I just want a fun & loving partner, who is pleasant to look at
and be with, who is honest, straight forward, and also forgiving,
because I'll surely need some of that!

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Blog entry; Friday 20th November, 2009.......

Cooking food, raining, sundown in an hour...

feeling OK, heard Chapman today on a call in.. he said twice it was
going to get like road warriors....

I think its going to get bad.... like all the apocalyptic movies
combined.... the mother of all disasters......

Carbon tax isnt going to save anyone anything.....

I think the Ranchers are spot on......

I feel for all the people who will die or worse......
But theres not much I can do about it...

Just continue to make a fool of myself doing this blog trying to get
people to think...

And as a man, I find it very sad to be alone and know a couple
billion women will die for being glitter sluts..........

One of the nice things about the online dating trip, is ocasionally I
get to see some background scenery..... some very beautiful areas
in Mongolia....

I think some of the women in the outlying areas might make it......
We shall see......

later, ate, thinking about some of the biblical predictions... Its so
encrypted... but I'm quite sure I at least have the overview...
and its not good....

I would love to see the decent people survive.... and I've long
wondered what kind of moment the actual mega disaster is going
to be? is it possible that large numbers of people could survive?
largest number of survivors mentioned is 200,000,000 or about 3%
of current population...

one of the thing I notice w/dating trip, is the problem w/overweight
white women seems to be universal.... every country I surf.... and
I wonder about the commonalities besides race......

later, midnight, woke rested, thinking about some of the nice
looking women online, its getting me wanting to make some moves,
like farm sale etc. so I could go to someplace far away to collect
a woman... I love travel, havent been able to do much of it for
several years, so a trip sounds nice... so far I like the chinese
and mongolian women the best... they seem simple but pretty, and
say things decent people would think to say.... I have always
wanted to go to china, and tour by buying a horse and saddle and
going into some more remote area and spending time traveling among
the people and villages..... I have little interest in the
cities....

like the Mongolian girl who said she loved freedom.... me too...
most of who I am, and what I do is about freedom... life is
inheriently a form of freedom... albeit generally circumscribed by
limits imposed by the sick elements in society....

People are waking up, realizing that the technocult is on a bad
path... and thats the first step of repairing it... that the people
become sick of the sickness.... one thing I am seeing from the social
networking sites, is that now we can all easily peer into far away
cultures, make friends there, understand them, love them, and go to
see them in person, when we run out of worse things to do..

I think the online dating trip is important... it will lead to alot
of cross polinization.. there are already Americans, Germans,
British people everywhere on the planet.... I doubt you can find a
place without some american living there among the locals... and
soon with the online social networking, more & more... and its
both women and men, I see fotos of white western civilisation women
with Men and children in far mongolia, and I am happy to see it...

I think given time, such resources as the internet could see us
having a better planet.. but that time factor is very worrying....
Human stupidity being what it is, with so many exercising their
butts in front of TV's, with the send end being controlled by greed
heads, We are headed towards disaster.....

alcohol, TV, football, & a job, do not create a life...

they create a medium for mental morons to pretend to..... the
american dream is as fake and plastic as Barbie & Ken.....

I feel for the fat white women.... To be once so beautiful, and to
lose it from ravenous porking from the technocult's electric answer
to the
pantry, is really sick.... I havent owned a refrigerator in 16
years... maybe 18...... my food is simple... living on $30 a
month plus what my trees grow isnt bad.. I get plenty to eat, and
since I quit buying oil and sugar I feel alot better....

and lost more weight...

basicaly we have been turned into credit pig slaves...

I admire the thin mongolian girl, who's message to the world, is;
"I love freedom."

I doubt she stays chained to a refrigerator or a TV....

and her message sure seems alot nicer than what I read coming from
the fat lesbians.... pigs bad mouthing the hand that feeds them,
licking each other's vaginas because they're too good to be a decent
man's wife.... I know homosexuality is just part of the human
spectrum, like cows jumping over the fence looking for better
pasture, but when it grows and grows, pretty soon the society has
problems.. and those very people depend on the society as much as
anyone...

well, its a short road now to total anarchy... coming to a theater
near you.....

The Bible talks about the wages of sin as being death.... I think
that message from the ranchers has been so twisted by the glassy
eyed fanatics as to lose it's meaning... evil deeds bring evil
results, lusts & greed brings poverty and war and death...

And I suppose people will only begin to figure it out when they
are left alive and screaming in the rubble and among the bloating
stinking corpses of everyone who wasn't as lucky.....

what is sin?

I think Christianity has been ruined by christians....

its been made into a social country club for brain dead morons
with out a cause they are capable of really understanding....

I dont see the other religions as being any better, just different
versions of the same things being used by their status quo to justify
what ever they want it to...

I look around me, and am disgusted by everything I see that isnt good
& natural...

I love freedom.......

And I want a woman who doesnt need controlled, because she's real
enough to control herself...

Freedom and control are a dichotomy pair... If I control myself, I
wont be controlled by others....

the fat women have no self control.... so they are controlled by a
greed based food industry.... victims of the profit motive, turned
from beauties into horrid monsters, because they never had to learn
self control in their pampered warm and fuzzy pseudo reality....

I dont want to control anyone, nor do I want anyone controlling me...
so I have self control....

I control my own destiny... through daily choices and actions...

and what have I learned? not to believe in anything except my own
ability to learn truth.... becase its the truth that sets you free..

truth is I dont need a refrigerator... or some woman emptying it, and
ragging me if I dont keep it full enough for her...

"A good man eats to live, a bad man lives to eat." (Tao)

What do good and bad women do?

well, the social system is collapsing..

have a nice Apocalypse..... you could have prevented it by waking up
and actually doing something about it... at the very least getting
yourself outside Hell's gates...

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Blog entry, Friday 20th, November 2009.....

morning; 1:am.... woke just before midnight...
Just lit a fire to smudge the bugs....

well, world hasnt gotten any better in the last couple days.... I
did a town run, also spent some time online looking for potential
woman...

I see that lesbianism is way popular these days... I have no
problem with it personally, but what I do realize is homosexuality
isnt well thought of by the Ranchers... they consider it borderline
to terminal society, and fried Sodom & Gomorah for getting to that
point....

so.... I feel sorry for the poor fools who get off into it.... as
I'm fairly sure arrival date is In our lifetimes, and the ranchers
have given warning they intend to sort out and burn the
rejects....

so I certainly dont want to go there... not for any self righteous
religious reasons, but because I know whats behind the vail of
religious fanaticism, and what it all means..

anyway looking at the mating game online is entertaining... I have
been doing countries...

finding women I like the looks of.. some who even say the right
things... in other words a start... down a long and perilous
path...

as looking nice/saying nice, are generally far from being nice, or
even marginally workable...

nature has played a bad joke on us...

but I do appreciate the online trip... it alows me to shop from the
tranquility of my own hide out.....

and considering I am economically land locked,
its a fairly safe hobby, until the farm sells, then it becomes risky
business.. but I've been burned before, and see the on hold time
as an opportunity to do some processing... will I find her? I
wouldnt bet on it.... but its at least something I can do, to feel
like I am doing something...

And after so many years of being unable to do much of any thing, I
appreciate that much.....

it would be nice to find my woman.... but I figure its unlikely....
knowing myself, and knowing the world, as I do, I know that
thinking I've found her usually really means I've played a sick
joke on myself with my own heart as the fool...

sad.... but true...

the good news, is it really doesnt matter... accompanied,
unaccompanied, still the same trail...

one foot in front of the other, avoid the rocks, mud, and thorns,
keep moving, eventually get to the end.... the company could be
nice, could be tedious or worse, likely few greater problems than
bad partners.... ask me how I know......

but I'm older & wiser now, hope and idealism replaced by realism
and dread... one learns one thing; any excuse, is a good excuse
to use to seperate from things that arent working out... all one
can do is their best, and if that aint good enough, find something
else to waste your efforts on...

there is a saying; better alone, than with bad company... and the
longer I live, the more alone I find myself, and the more I realize
how nice that really is...

lunch time... surfed the singles again, Mongolia... some very nice ladys...

sad part is all the white women, most are going down hill fast,
as in gained 50 lbs, and usually were very nice looking before they
did.... looks to me like they start turning loose mentaly at 35,
and go to total hell... sad, and I wont be comming w/the fat
ones.....

did see some very nice indigenous women, many that I liked... also
some nice white women, still in good shape, and a couple black women
who looked nice, one looked like a fun character... I dont care about
color, would like a pretty one, but I do like some of the plain
ones too,
there was one really plain native woman I liked she said she loved
freedom... just that, and I had to agree, I love freedom too,
above pretty much all else, and wondered if she'd like company,
riding horses someplace remote and beautiful?

I'm getting a really nice impression from many of the Chinese and
Mongolian women, one gets the impression that many are really
beautiful people...

you see, what I have learned, is its the simple pleasures of life
that count.. I'd rather be free & wild than chained to my
vanity....

still having a hard time believing what I see in fotos of the western
white women.... ones that wouldnt give a frog like me the time of day
at 30 years old, and by the time they hit 40, they're pigs....
I wouldnt touch one.... we're talking tens to twos..... and whats
wierd, is you can see if they lost the weight they'd be pretty
again... Its not age, its mental illness.......

to go from beautiful to ugly in 5-10 years because they cant
eat well? and it mostly boils down to oil and sugar... you dont
get fat eating spuds or pasta, its the oils and lard, and the
sweets.... check the calories in ten pounds of spuds, and a
tablespoon of oil....

also I saw younger women over weight... one was trying to hype the
guys about her being the best girlfriend ever.... and you know
that desperation could all go away if she became vegetarian and
gave up sugars & oils..... she'd within 6 months be getting hit on
by plenty of guys..... hey! girls, we love to love you, both
physically and emotionally, but we do tend to be very visually
based, and all the words, and all the makeup, and all the clothes
in the world cant cover up extra weight from you girls hugging
refridgerators instead of us... I dont own a refrigerator... nor
a stove, nor an income in any normal sense... I'm skinny as a
rail.... and I at one time weighed 200 lbs, and now below 150,
maybe below 140, I dont know.... and my point is; dieting is
easy...... give up owning a refrigerator, give up the grocery
cart.... I spent $30 a few days ago... thats a month's food.......
not getting fat on that.... and I used to spend $300 a month...

and my point is the warm fuzzy comfy life is leading to a sad
heart... we all need to get real.....

Another thing I see online, is alcohol.... many women obviously
becomming alcoholics & thinking drinking, is a prerequisite to
making love... its kind of disgusting to me, and I dont mind
drinking ocasionally.....

I also wonder about the attitudes of the males? I dont see that
aspect, but I wonder if there is any honesty or sincerity anymore?
or are the guys just being dick heads? I love sex, its my
favorite thing, but I dont sacrifice my integrity to get it, and
I would hope when finally I do have a woman again, that there's
heart in the relationship from both directions...

Ladies, the only way we're going to be able to fix things, is by
fixing ourselves.... feminism is toxic, most men on the planet
spend most of their time and lives doing things that benefit women...
and its all coming unraveled..... and I dont think feminism means
much in total anarchy..... and thats where we are headed if we dont
get off the ego and vanity trips.....

imagine total anarchy girls, no laws, no social system, no
limits.... and no shortage of angry disenfranchised males, many
military or gang veterans, many are armed, many are expert shots,
or martial artists etc. what will happen if the thing explodes?
I think theres going to be alot of people getting alot more sex
than they are used to... and not the loving healthy kind.....

before the fall comes pride......

just listened to a report that france's largest bank is publishing
information on how to deal with a total economic collapse...

girls, there are going to be two basic commodities after the
collapse.... food & sex..... check out what happened in eastern
europe after the soviet collapse... one of the fastest growing AIDS
areas on the planet..... and women are still being bagged,
transported and used as involuntary sex slaves for Mafias........

I dont think your lesbian girlfriend is going to do much for you
security wise.... if she has a gun, she'll get head shot by an
expert...

wouldnt it be better to have a good, decent man? designed by nature
to care about you, defend you, want you?

your choice...

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Blog entry; Sunday 15th November 2009.........

Late afternoon, cooking yucca for self and dog, raining gently...

I've been busy cruising the my space date section, soon to have an
account booted, and going thru the stuff ahead of time, to have some
homework done.....

Pretty sorry state of affairs, plenty of lonely hearts, good side
is the service does exist....

got bored looking at blondes, real and otherwise... I dont mind
whitish women, just not used to seeing many, and so it was a bit
boggling, culture shock.... some look like really nice people, some
have a bad attitude, ran into one, was pretty, but no ten, might
hold an 8 for five years, but in foto she's wearing a shirt that
says "I only date rich guys" obviously needs mental help....

old Taoist saying; "Those who have much, will lose much."
(especially in times like these!)

hope she snags her rich guy.... might learn something when the
economy collapses.... get to have kids w/an arrogant jerk, with
nothing to be arrogant about anymore... could be rough duty.....

And thats if she's lucky.... could be Nuclear war, and lose
everything.......

anyway, plenty of cleavage, acres of it, I thought it must be the
women competing for hits, but began to wonder if it was to let guys
know they werent the transvestites? I figured most of them out, I
think only one made it past me, we shall see... I'm not much on
guys... I dont even like seeing men in the girlie magazines....

I scanned thru several countries, and some overall stuff.... very
nice looking women for the most part, The way I see it, I'd like to
try to save a good one... chances are slim..... they'll see me as
being too old, never mind that I didnt trash myself like everyone
else in my age group..... while the yuppies were rat racing, I hung
out in paradise, got plenty of time in the hammock,, lotsa vitamin C,
no shortage of sunshine, nothing but spring water, and very low
stress.....

starting to show some age, but I'm really in OK shape... not over
weight, no health problems to worry about, and life extension coming
over the horizon....

anyway I even checked out Nepal... there were some strange
hits..... some nice, some geech, and no shortage of Brits looking
to leave, even older women, which I didnt see as much elsewhere...
literally white grannies looking for a plane ticket.....

that was sad.... I suspect the Economy must be getting very hard
there...... but the british women were often overweight in the
fotos, so they arent starving yet....

I suspect they are more likely to survive in Nepal than London.......

also in all the searching did run into many out door women..... that
was nice.......

I'm laughing, wondering if I'll get as good of hits numbers as the
Transvestites? I'm kind of wild and crazy looking, and obviously
ageing, but I figure its worth a try, after living alone 16
years....
And I'm going thru and being honest.... just picking out the ones I
really like, so I dont get into any worse trouble than
necessary....

we shall see.... I think its a numbers game.... maybe one in a
hundred I like, will be marginally interested in me.... and need a
hundred of those to find one that decides she has to have me....
i.e. odds maybe one in a thousand.....

That will take awhile, to find a thousand I like... my only prayer
for years concerning women, has been that it be the exact right one
for me....

I figure thats why its taken so long... God has been having a real
problem getting it lined up.....

the way I see it, its a race.... see if she shows up, or I die
first..... & I'd rather live alone than have another wrong one...
and even if Mrs. Right
does make it in time, then I'd feel sorry for her.... putting up
with me isnt easy, I know, I've been doing it for years, w/nobody
else to blame......

Enlightenment is knowing yourself... chop wood, carry water, is
fine, but living alone is a more sure path to self realization...
little by little the layers of Ego peel off.....

Also saw some fun stuff, teen agers trying to pass for women,
grandmothers trying to pass for teenagers.... girls from more
strict cultures trying
the risque open shirt/one side of a breast etc. funniest was one
woman, maybe mid 30's trying a playboy pose on the rug... she had
the pose right, but I think the house was too cold to think to take
off the snow suit....

saw some sweet vignettes, saw some things that saddened me, read
captions from arrogant to enlightened....

All I can do is cross my fingers, and see if anything happens for
me..... I'm a bit early, figure a year or two to sell the farm, get
another, and come up w/a place for a woman etc.... but I think thats
good... I'll use the time to boot friendships, and get to know
them, and some will decide I'm a jerk, others will get distracted,
but maybe one will decide I'm OK? if not, no big deal, the
hardest years of living alone are already behind me......

morning, just waking up.... went to plug in the light in the dark,
and felt something cold and slithery on the back of my hand, it was
a thin tree snake, with a brown diamond pattern, not sure what it
is, but he's hanging out in my kitchen sieve, where I'll leave
him... I have lizards, toads, bugs, tree frogs, and snakes that
live in my shelter with me... one big happy family...

Ah! Yeah.... life as a naturalist in the jungle....

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